Happy with the development my mum has regaind conciousness after 5 hours in the operation theater. When i talk to her after she came back to her ward, eventhou she couldnt speak up, she shows her thumbs up.. an ok sign.. what a relief i was.. after 7 months of suffering, i just hope she will be all well and be back with her normal life once again!
Thanks to the god for hearing my prayers. I will fulfill the prayers very soon coming thaipusam! :)
Never came across my mind of this day. Im feeling stressed like its never before. Praying and praying for the best news out. Waiting at the hospital with the clock ticking every second is very very painfull. My mother is undergoing surgery for CSF leak. A type of disorder where brain protecting fluid keeps dripping thru her nose every time. We thought ita a running nose, till we get to know about it few months back. The doctors said they can give a 100% confirmation of a successful surgery.. yes thats the news i want to hear. Yet still im feeling skeptical. I cant imagine a life without her! Feeling emotionally stressed right now.
Dear god, please make me strong.. i want my mum back.. Please dont take her away from me!!
Ive always loved iranian or persian carpet for its authentic wool weaved finishing. Eventhou its expensive, loved the way to walk on them. Felt so comfortably relaxing. Yesterday went out to purchase some other stuff but changed my mind thanks to my another half, that i bought a wonderful, expensive, authentic, silk type wool carpet. Since yesterday i can resist on walking on top of it.
I wonder how is it like when we go thru days without talking to anyone. Its like a mental torture is it? The feel of emptiness, the feel of being left out, being completely invisible to nature. Without any type of sound wave moving along you. It would feel like in outer space right. The force of gravity cuts down sound wave. Yet still its a physically and emotionally pain full to bare with. Recent day's I went thru such a scenario. Well its not like ive been left out in the space. But eventually landed in such a scenario that im pretty much sure all family men will land In one day. Hopeless decision sometimes comes in the form or enemy within. Well i feel too tired to describe that in details here. But one thing for sure. I do stand on my own term. My pride and ego control ably sometimes comes with the decision that I take. And im very proud of that!
Today is ponggal festival in Malaysia. Even thou its not really recognised in malaysia like how it was in India. The festive is celebrated in small scale in Malaysia. This year my celebration is as minimal as possible. More to say just some prayers at home, eat vege foods prepared by my wife and watch tv programs.
Today is my wife's birthday.. initially i have no idea what present I should buy for her. It went on a big dilemma thinking what present to buy. Whether a good fragrant perfume or an expensive dress and etc.. Well yesterday I decided something diffrent. Instead of me choosing the right gift for her, I decided to bring her to the mall and let her choose the gift she like. And finally its over, bought for her a nice wrist watch. Its small nice and elegant. Perfect for her hand. She likes the watch thou.. Well, Happy Birthday dear! :)
Two days back went out wit cousins for a movie marathon alike. Watched Arambam acted by ajith then after we watched Thor-3D. We had a blast watching those movies.. finally an exciting moment with my cousins.. after the movie we had straight to a thai restaurant nearby for a dinner. I cant wait to have more of such gathering.. exciting and rewarding.. the type of family bonding that ive been longing for long.. made me very happy :)
Missing my family a lot.. more over missing the one day that I wait for the year...deepavali a lot.. Life is diffrent now a days, wonder when the tables will change, how can I go back to the glorious day of my life.. fun time with my cousins.. all the never ending foods, funs, fire crackers, new clothes, temple prayers, the hype and the joy.. ;(
This year the deepavali environment seems quiet for me. Unlike previous year deepavali celebration, where new clothes, visits to cousins house and never ending fun times took place, this year it is quiet for me.. my fathers death is the main thing. For hindus generally in a family once a family member passed away they will avoid any celebrations and generally any type of events for a year as a symbol of respect for the deceased. Thats what im going thru now. Well till next year somewhere around june till my fathers 1st year prayers are done, generally no any celebration of sorts will we participate. Thats why.. silent deepavali it is..
