The one day im counting so much to come fast is the end of the month.. or Oct-28th to be precise. Why because il be returning back to the place that i adored to work in my life. The sweet learning curve of all my life.. the good and the bads.. not to mention, thousands of faces that i came accross from there.. where else if not 'Intel'..
Just did a count from the day i left (18-Mar'2010) and the day il re-join (1st-Nov'21)..
Its been a freaking 4247 days!Till then, i want to enjoy every single moment at Intel! Alas previous 4 years of bitterness should go away end of the month.. But my journey at Seagate is something that i would cherish in my life always too.. those 7 years at Seagate is full of colorfull experience.. Not to mention the amount of friendships that i made..
and yessss.. im moving on. For the many of my bloggers that felt puzzled with my previous post. Yes im moving away from HP. I feel its the perfect moment to move away from that place to some where that i recognize!
I know at the new place im cant expect a honeymoon life, i know the sky may not be bright at the new place, i know i may not be happier then happy right now.. yet still i want to brace thru the challenge. What ever it comes, im well prepared that after all the storms and tornadoes that i went thru at HP, i believe im matured enough to embrace what ever thats awaits me.. alas i been thru much worst :)
I didnt thought of re-igniting my blogging. Certainly its not even in my slightest single piece of intention to kick it back. But today i will start back or at least should i say to blog for once.. Why? Because of a very important aspect of my worklife that hurts me so much that i want to set it straight out! Over the past few years, especially towards the end of 2017 it has been a traumatic year for me, to say at least. Yes my job! Never felt a single day of happiness that made me smile. Probably the setup of my job place contributes to that. But this year...especially after my birthday, a miracle happened.. Im going back to where i stopped.. which is way back to March'2010! I know its a bit cryptic, but cant reveal much.. Probably over the next few blogs i would clearly very clearly say what its gonna be..
For now my cryptic poem for this tiny blog note is like this..
"Starting with: 10982222
Continued with: 433511
Further with: 90011831
Going back to : 10982222"
:)
Time is something i cant play around especially these days.. and blogging seems very very hard for me.
Well, im starting to see an end to blogging for now.. not sure when time allows me to start blog again. For now il leave this blog to a state of "defunct" but not closing it off. I will reboot it soon.. very soon. Till then a big Pause.
Wishing all my Blog readers, a very Happy New Year!!
The end of 2018 is fast approaching.. alas things are still skeptical for me..
2018 i would call it a year full of "fun-rides".. I wished the year will be full of energy and new discovery but its full of many surprises.. some of them are easy to digest in some are not.. well i prefer not to indulge in any of it..I let it be as my reflection of the past..
Few things i hoped for is a stable flow of wealth.. i prefer to use wealth then cash as wealth can be described in many ways.. alas, not much of differences i could see..
Health, hmm starting of 2018 i had a severe tonsillitis for which i had been hospitalized for 3 days and that too on Jan-2nd!!! Starting of the year!! Nice isn't it?! That's one of the most unforgettable horrible health event that took place on me!
Relationship wise.. hmm nothing much.. a good one. Travelling, except for my business travel to Singapore and few internally traveled destinations.. not much special that i could think off..
Well my son turned 4 this year and he will be going to school (kindy) in January, thats something i really proud of and happily look forward..
Nothing else i could sum up for this year. Well as always hoping for peaceful and wealthy 2019! Till then folks.. Advance Happy New year!
Deepavali ended several days back. For me Deepavali is a day full of vibrant, vivid, colorful and exciting compare with the rest of 365 days in a year.. but unusually like several years back, this year is no different.. dull, less cheerful and boring.. I couldn't tell why, but yea thats how i feel for the past few years.. i dont know why. Maybe.. Maybe this year i may have the answer.. but could not be the same answer for previous several years. This year i fall sick badly and that too near deepavali. Plus a haywire list of stuffs caused me to enter the panic mode. Work stress, nevertheless adds extra ingredients to this boredom.. Well a complete package that turn my mood upside down. I just wish .. "yea like every year". Next year to be an exciting deepavali.. lets see..
Keeping fingers crossed.
Just noticed, tomorrow is my 1 year anniversary at my new work place HP. Oh my 1 year goes away very fast..
Il try to post more on blogger.. as much as i can .. as long as my predicament in my work and my personal solves fast..
Yes the perfect word. In fact i cant find any better word to describer the situation im in right now. I can feel the wrath of 2018 after merely 17 days into it sharp and edgy to the point of ready to be used for slaughter.. Its better to describe as my condition at office right now. An 8 years veteran who has a vast knowledge and who has been delegated to transfer that knowledge to me will leave in a very short period of time due to personal issues. The "scariest worst" part of it, the knowledge that i have so far attained are merely 10 to 15%. The "terrifying worst" part of it, no single documentation by this veteran. The "disastrous worst" part of it, no backup personal with same knowledge up till now. The "apocalyptic worst" part of it, i have to meet a bunch of people who are waiting for an outcome where my limited 15% knowledge will need to speak out which is absolutely insufficient to cater..
To sum up..
scariest worst part
terrifying worst part
disastrous worst part
apocalyptic worst part
These are the worst of the worst part of my open eyed nightmare right now.. Whether i will come out of this turbulence or sink down fast, only time will tell. But for now, ive prepared to face what ever things coming on my way. With or without life support..
Image Copyright: "Van Gogh's Turbulent Mind Captured Turbulence"
Make the most of this year to achieve success in all your endeavors. Happiness comes to those who know how to dispel the gloominess and go beyond the trivialities of life. Rise above petty issues and see the joys that surround you.
Let’s give a warm welcome to the year that starts a new, cherish each moment that the year shall behold, so let’s come together and celebrate a blissful start to the New Year.
A look back at 2017.. for me its a challenging year. Full of multiple zones of complication, emotional distress.. and financially.. well distress as always... The only thing keeping me together is none other then my 2 years old son..
Job change is an interesting turn of event back in July. A big change that ive decided right away.. No regrets on that. Apart from that.. others are all the same.. no change.. i just wish 2018 a bit more emotionally happier and also as always.. "financially" stable one..
Goodbye 2017... 18 is around the corner now..
I can’t believe two years has passed since you came into this world. Time flew so fast maybe because we enjoy, we really did enjoy, watching you grow up. You fascinate us with your every little milestone. Happy 2nd birthday to the most joyful, sweet kid that I know. Now look at you and all you’ve learned! You laugh and play and learn in your own special way. Joy to you on your birthday!
My Dear Son Divesshwaar,
Always stay happy and content in Life. On this special day, i wish you to remain healthy, wealthy and happy always, appa wishing you a very happy birthday! Love you so much!
இனிய தீபாவளி நல்வாழ்த்துக்கள்!
Im falling in love with IT again.. :)
Its going to be a month on my journey of working at HP. I can feel ive settled down quite well here. Things that i never before learn looks miraculously interesting to learn here in HP. Oceans of stuffs to be precise. Accesses's, meetings, training's are all coming over my way wave by wave.. Basically im pretty much occupied with stuffs.
But one thing that is affecting me pretty much is the loneliness. I hate being left alone as it makes me sad and rethink my utmost decision. But im accepting it in a positive way as time is the ultimate factor which will all change.
At HP i has few to none known faces from my past work life so my time at HP are all surrounded within me. Unlike my time at my previous company be it Intel or Seagate where i was surrounded by plenty of friends.. i felt like a family.. At my current place, sometimes during lunch break i just took my car drive around the area, talking to myself, listening to my car audio.. i know its weird, well thats the only thing i can do.. cause no one around to be with..
Hmm this loneliness is really killing me. :(
As for now.. Hello HP!
My life continues...
(2010 - 2017)
Wish me luck!
Eventhou he is not with me today and to play with his grandson and eventhou i do not like him that much, he is still my dad. I have to thank him for brought me to this world, to let me see wonderful things and most of all to somehow to make me who i am today. His character and examples may be bad, but his will of life will always let me be admired.
Dedicated to my dad.. Mr. S. Sivanathan. Thanks Dad!
My rating: (6.5 over 10 star)
I know it seems norm for all to face, been face or had been a victim of bullying in some point of their life. Mostly during their school times. But this act can lead to bigger problem for the victim. The worst.. death. There are so many cases of bullying out there and majority of us doesn't seems to care much about it, because we will think that as part of growing up process. Especially in schools. But when that involve death then we will be regretting to not stop the act, which by then will be to late.
I'm pretty sure my son will face the same bullying tune at some point of his school time, but im fully determined to be there for him and stop the act whenever it surface by all mean possible!
This post is dedicated to T.Nhaveen (A victim of school friends abuse who have died yesterday, who dreamed to become a successful music composer.) & ZulFarhan (A victim of a defense school newbie who just joined the academy). Both dreamed to achieve bigger things in their life, unfortunately their soul was ripped apart by the bullies. Rest in peace my brothers! :(
#justiceforNhaveen #justiceforZulFarhan