The " I " Effect

Been listening to "I" music.. the upcoming Tamil mega movie in making for almost 2 years now. Its directed by my favorite director Shankar. Cant wait for the movie. As most know, extravaganza, magnum opus, beyond imagination is the word perfect for shankar's movie. Im sure he have kicked in the same element on this movie too. Cant wait!

Till then.. ive 'merselayiten' with the songs.. *no idea what it meant thou*  :)

Clueless time away

After nearly 2 month of depressed, clueless, agonizing, missing time.. im back!
i hope its for good as for few days now ive been trying to sort things up. Hope im back to where iam. Too much things have going on the past which caused me to have a lack of dedicated time to blog. I know ive been saying that for the past few post, but i have a feeling im back for good. Bless me whoever you are for me to come back to normal :)

Thank you folks.

Missing in diffrent space

My oh my, ive been missing from blogging action for 3 months!!! Thats very bad for me :( Well time factor have sucked me from net blogging to personal fixing. Lots of things went thru and i couldn't allocate necessary time to spend time to blog. I felt very bad about this. Well only thing i could do is to fix my time well enough to allocate tiny winy time to blog. Lets see how it goes. Well some of the things that ive went thru.. The world cup of course. Happy that my favorite team Germany has lifted the world cup! Good job guys. Other then that, the disappearance of MH370 and the newly breaked news, the shot and crash of flight MH17!!! aah again!!?  Wonder whats going on with Malaysian aviation industry. Please enough of this massive death! My prayers and thoughts are with the family of MH17!

Happy Tamil New Year!!

Happy Tamil New Year

to all celebrating Tamilians around the globe! :)

"இனிய தமிழ் புத்தாண்டு நல்வாழ்த்துக்கள்"

Soundless and empty

I wonder how is it like when we go thru days without talking to anyone. Its like a mental torture is it? The feel of emptiness,  the feel of being left out, being completely invisible to nature. Without any type of sound wave moving along you. It would feel like in outer space right. The force of gravity cuts down sound wave. Yet still its a physically and emotionally pain full to bare with. Recent day's I went thru such a scenario. Well its not like ive been left out in the space. But eventually landed in such a scenario that im pretty much sure all family men will land In one day. Hopeless decision sometimes comes in the form or enemy within.  Well i feel too tired to describe that in details here. But one thing for sure.  I do stand on my own term. My pride and ego control ably sometimes comes with the decision that I take. And im very proud of that!

Why Religion Conversion.

First of all i would like to make a strict statement, this has nothing to do with me what so ever. I'm not converting to any religion. In-fact i hate this sudden skipping of religion. I'm a staunch believer and follower of Hinduism till my soul left my body!

Religious conversion seems like have became a popular thing nowadays. Funny part is the reason for the conversion seems to me pretty absurd, full of rubbish reasons. Parents death, Marriage failure, Inner peace and lots of lots of crappy reasons. Im suprised with all this reasons. Well it is every man's independent decision on which path to follow in his life. But for me its a wide change of life. and the person who does convert seems happy with this.

For me religion is not only a spiritual path, its a way of life. Its a pure step that leads a man thru out his life cycle. Just imagine, since birth our parents brought us up in one religion then out of sudden we embrace another ones.. So is our life complete in this case? Yes arguing on this will take the topic more deeper and unwanted debate. But my simple question, is it necessary? What the god on the other religion had done to infuriate a person to jump to the other? Who to blame in this case? or does this an action blamable?

All this questions keep flowing in my mind. Im not a person hatred towards any particular religion. But its just the ridiculous logic which keeps me in an argumentative state.

This post is for Yuvan. Such a bright musical composer of Tamil cinema. Well this is his life and his choice, who am i to argue. All this is just my 2 cents.

All expression on this post is of my personal opinion, it is not written in any sense or way of hating any religion, attacking any persons fundamental way or denying any persons right. To the wannabe attacker of this post, please take note!

Happy Chinese New Year

Wishing all my 'Chinese' readers, Happy Chinese New Year! 

May this new year bring many opportunities to your way,

to explore every joy of life

&

may your resolutions for the days ahead stay firm,

turning all your dreams into reality

and all your efforts into great achievements.

Happy New Year to you & your loved ones.

恭喜发财

马年大吉

马到成功

吉祥如意

Best Regards,

Gauthem

Thaipusam 2014

Another year, another occasion.. another celebration or should i say prayer day. Well its clearly misinterpretation involve here. Today is Thaipusam day in hmm most of the country where Tamil peoples are. For me Thaipusam widely is misinterpreted as a celebration by many surprisingly! as its more towards prayer to a specific god.. Lord Murugan. I'm surprised my colleges are telling me "hey happy thaipusam" well i wondered to myself.. what should i do? go shopping? buy new clothes? visit friends and family? eat and sleep? Hahaha its a prayers day for the god and nothing to celebrate about! Well that's what happen when you live in a multi racial society that lacks the understanding of certain culture. For this year, its a somber day for me. As i did not participate for the prayers at any point.  Why? Since my fathers demise, its in Hinduism rules that one should not observe any prayers, celebrate any festive, or make a large scale celebration & etc. My father passed away last year June so till June 2014 (which is exactly a year), no celebration or prayers of any sorts are to be done by me. Well since there is a rule, its better for me not to break them. I'm pretty sure there are some intangible reasons behind this. I missed the prayers to my lovely god lord murugan. Well for now im targeting next year for a better prayers and offerings for him.

What im doing this year? well sitting in the office and typing this blog.. Hahaha. Supposingly i should just sit at home but i rather come to office to forget all the thaipusam hype and celebration prayers that im missing right now.



வெற்றிவேல் முருகனுக்கு அரோகரா!!!!!

Ridiculous movie.

Seriously im not against the freedom of speech or the freedom of expression example movies. But what if a movie goes against the limit. Is it called freedom of expression or even contemporary art?
One of the movie that i found extremely insulting is a tamil movie namely "naveena saraswathy sabatham". In the name of comedy the movie insults Hindu gods to the core!! How worst this directors are until they found messing with religious sentiment in comical genre very good? I felt very sad with the movie and cursed not only the director, but together with Tamil Nadu censor board. They allowed the film! Wow! Why did they banned "Bombay" in which they said insulting muslim religion? Wouldn't this movie regarded same way? Why the bias?? Do they need to wait till someone make a formal complain or few peoples to protest then they will take action? Good job Tamil Nadu government! To my surprise, the tamil nadu people are quiet with the movie. It's really fascinate me.

To the director 'K. Chandru' of Naveena saraswathy sabatham, if you by chance saw this blog, my message to you, please don't come up with another such stupid movie, please dont play with religious sentiment again. I know you tried very hard to copy the english movie 'Hangover'. Seriously nothing so comedy about it!

Happy Ponggal

Today is ponggal festival in Malaysia. Even thou its not really recognised in malaysia like how it was in India. The festive is celebrated in small scale in Malaysia. This year my celebration is as minimal as possible. More to say just some prayers at home, eat vege foods prepared by my wife and watch tv programs.

Birthday for my dearie

Today is my wife's birthday.. initially i have no idea  what present I should buy for her. It went on a big dilemma thinking what present to buy. Whether a good fragrant perfume or an expensive dress and etc.. Well  yesterday I decided something diffrent. Instead of me choosing the right gift for her,  I decided to  bring her to the mall and let her choose the gift she like.  And finally its over, bought for her a nice wrist watch. Its small nice and elegant. Perfect for her hand. She likes the watch thou.. Well, Happy Birthday dear! :)

Agitated life

Its just been 7 days from the new calendar year. New days born to remind man kind, new tasks, new path, new discovery awaiting us with every second of the clocks tick. I had rather agitated day as 7 days pass by. I hate 2013 very much, for one sole reason. For me its the year of death. So much death ive seen on the year alone. Terrifyingly many to count off personally. I wished for a peacefull year 2014 to be. But not as its comes by. Early morning yesterday i had a shocking news from my mom. My cousin sisters husband passed away in India while working on a surgery for liver transplant. He was a great guy, nice to chat with, straight to the point and a peacefull looking guy. He had a severe liver detoriation problem for several years. After a donor came up to donate her liver, he the donor and my cousin sis went to India for the transplant. Unfortunately god prefers him to be by his side rather then to wake alive. Whats more sad was he just became a father for a beautifull baby girl.

Sometimes i couldn't really understand why our life is so cruel. Why do we born? Why do we need to spend so little time on this life? Why we had to endure painful life and die in the midst of happiness? Such a bad life indeed.

Dedicated to my bro-in-law Kumaresan Gunalan (1980-2014). Rest in Peace bro!
Thilagam, please be strong! you have to endure the life for the sake of your child.

Happy New Year 2014!!

New year comes to give us a fresh hope, For a better future and success, New Year gives us dream for that we will face challenges with confidence. On this new year may your dreams and hopes succeed with the blessings of god. Let us pray for peace and a overflowing prosperity throughout the year!

Happy New Year to all my blog readers.

With best Regards,

Gauthem

Pizza-II - Villa

Watched Pizza-II - The Villa two days ago. I brought the DVD as the movie was out somewhere back in November. So ive missed to watch it at the cinema. Such an interesting movie. It was supposingly an horror movie, but for me its more towards a thriller.. a suspense a like. The movie was well crafted with supernatural and spiritual twining in between. Basic story of a son found that he inherited a villa from his father who died mysteriously few days back. Since he lost some law suits of another issue, he lost his current house and left only the villa which he owns now. The happy guy goes and stays at the villa where his life starts to behave strangely for him. The mystery is closely untangled with the help of his child hood friend. The key is on the painting where each occurrence was painted in the past. Its really chillingly spooky enough. I loved the BGM score of the movie. Hats off to Santosh Narayanan. On the climax, its a bit complicated to understand. Wonder what the director trying to prove here. For me its like, trustworthy relationship can sometimes stabs back on our own. Complicated eh? Well the movie is a must to watch! After watching the movie, there is one song that keeps me humming till now, its part of the discovery of the mystery on the film. Ive added the youtube link as below. Enjoy.

Pizza II - Villa - Song: Kanum Gnyanam

Overall i rate this movie (3 out of 5 star)

Goodbye 2013!

Bye bye 2013, its time to wrap up 2013 now. For me 2013 did not hold any wonderful memoirs or any moment special. Its just another year that goes by. The month June where my fathers death was a big impact for me and my family where the aftermath transformed my life completely. Physically and emotionally ive changed. Beyond June, everything was diffrent in my life.Well it marked a diffrent beginning on me i guess. Other then that in 2013 as usual my financial crisis did prolong, but to a lesser extent which makes me a bit happier then 2012 :)

Goodbye 2013!

Remembering Tsunami Victims

To all the families of Boxing day Tsunami victims. My thoughts are with you. Stay strong. Rest in peace for all the victims.

Merry Christmas! !

Wishing all my blog readers and all of Internet community... "Merry Christmas"!! Have a blast with your loved ones.. stay safe.. and most of all dont drink and drive. If you do, dont drive.. think of your loved ones!! :)

Sayonara Yahoo Mail!

The word Yahoo! means happy and emotionally joyful. But does it really suits for yahoo!? I don't think so, i used to love yahoo mail a lot, its my primary email provider ever since ive been introduced to the world of internet back in the college years (90's). Even thou i have Hotmail (which is now outlookmail), i loved yahoo a lot and even ported and re-directed all my incoming mails from Hotmail to yahoo mail as i feel one primary email address is the best. I hate to maintain multiple ones. But now i feel its getting towards the end of yahoo mail reign. I feel extremely disgusted with the way they manage spam, the layout of the email itself and not to mention the super duper slowness it is!! How am i suppose to use my email in this sense? argghh!!! And what do you know, people around the internet are cursing yahoo mail ever since. I thought im the only one. Enough is enough! that's it, im planning to quit using yahoo mail once and for all! no more nonsense crappy spams and childish like layouts to bother about. I'm going to use GMail moving forward. Yes, i registered gmail sometimes back in 2005 (if i could remember). Its purely using my name as the email ID. Luckily enough cause my email is so popular i can see multiple email ID with some aliases on them on the net! Wow i didnt know that.. Haha. For Yahoo! You are really a pathetic provider. Thats it. Im moving over slowly to GMail and i hope by March or April next year, i would be fully on GMail alone without yahoo! Sayonara Yahoo mail!

R.I.P Mandela!

Post dedicated to Mr. Nelson Mandela 

July 18, 1918 - December 5, 2013

Rest in peace Mr. Mandela! Your effort for the anti-apartheid in African nation will never be forgotten.


For to be free is not merely to cast off one's chains, but to live in a way that respects and enhances the freedom of others.
- Nelson Mandela

Back to Malaysia!

Thats the end of my vacation and I'm back to where i finally belong.. 'Malaysia' :)
The vacation to Bali was nice, we enjoyed pretty much there and had a good time eventhou bali was not as good as how Phuket was (our honeymoon), it hold some interesting memories. The thing that amused me in Bali is the strong essence of Balinese Hindu culture in everything of their life. They are very simple, moderate & religiously pious people. I can see that they have temple on every single house! Wow!! temple on every single house!? Thats amazing to me as its not what one could expect to happen or see in Malaysia. One thing for sure is i'm very proud with the importance of Hindu culture in Bali for each and everything. I wish things are the same in Malaysia, unfortunately for Geo-political reason that's never gonna happen. Apart from few shopping's and sightseeing Bali is truly a fantastic place. Had some share of pretty bad experience as well. One for its food (maybe wrong choice of meal i guess) & second my wife got stung by jellyfish out at the beach in Kuta. Well she is recovering now. Other then that its a good trip whole together. I will visit Bali again maybe in few years time if time and situation persists :)

Departure day

Done with the final preparations.  Waiting for 7.30pm tonight for my journey to a new place 'Bali'. Im feeling very skeptical now on how the new place would be. Keeping my finger crossed.  I just wished bali would be same as my honeymoon trip previously at phuket.

Packing Packing

Packing, packing and packing. Its less then 3 days before i embark a travel journey straight to 'Bali'. Very much excited about it. Im planning a good amount of enjoyable journey to my much needed vacation. Yes! cant wait! Hahaha. Tickets are done, hotels are booked, currency changed, clothing's are done, camera done  just left a few stuffs that i need to buy before i leave this sunday. Yet my wife still slowly arranging her clothes one by one. Girls! How else can they be.. haha :)

Irandam Ulagam

Two days back, me and my wife thought of watching a good movie and off we go to nearby cinema. Back few years i used to wonder, how tamil cinema is going to evolve in few years time. Cause each time a movie comes up i would be disappointed with same ridiculous  story line, couple of low packing songs, comedy etc.. But the trend seems changing nowadays fast paced movie, stream down story line, nice background songs, new genre of comedies.. Wow.. Indian cinema has really evolve then! Good to know.. Irandam Ulagam fall on this genre.. what else can i say. What a movie this is! I just wish Steven Spielberg watch this movie. So nice to see improvements like this. Graphics are phenomenal! Superbly done.  Overall il rate this movie 8.5 over 10 for its excellent graphics, background score and story line!

Movie marathon

Two days back went out wit cousins for a movie marathon alike. Watched Arambam acted by ajith then after we watched Thor-3D. We had a blast watching those movies.. finally an exciting moment with my cousins.. after the movie we had straight to a thai restaurant nearby for a dinner. I cant wait to have more of such gathering.. exciting and rewarding.. the type of family bonding that ive been longing for long.. made me very happy :)

Diffrent vibe no hype

Missing my family a lot.. more over missing the one day that I wait for the year...deepavali a lot.. Life is diffrent now a days, wonder when the tables will change, how can I go back to the glorious day of my life.. fun time with my cousins.. all the never ending foods, funs, fire crackers, new clothes, temple prayers, the hype and the joy.. ;(

Happy Deepavali

Wishing all my blog readers Happy Deepavali!! Enjoy the celebration where ever you are with your loved ones. Stay safe and most importantly drive safe.

Silent Deepavali

This year the deepavali environment seems quiet for me. Unlike previous year deepavali celebration, where new clothes, visits to cousins house and never ending fun times took place, this year it is quiet for me.. my fathers death is the main thing. For hindus generally in a family once a family member passed away they will avoid any celebrations and generally any type of events for a year as a symbol of respect for the deceased.  Thats what im going thru now. Well till next year somewhere around june till my fathers 1st year prayers are done, generally no any celebration of sorts will we participate. Thats why.. silent deepavali it is..

Timeless time

I'm getting  awful on blogging nowadays, one good example.. my last blog was Aug-2 which is way 2 months back. Hahh.. im trying my best to allocate small piece of my buzy time for a little posts on the blog, but finding a good time is really awful thing to do nowadays. I need to be get back again to my blogging as blogging is the only way i could express myself in this jungle of many non-understandable human beings..

EPL - Arsenal

Ive been so taken down with premiere league. So so enthusiastically disturbed with all those so called transfer saga's. Not many knows that im deeply and profoundly in love with one of the EPL club Arsenal FC. This club has been my soccer love since 1992. Ever since then, ive keep myself up to date with the clubs progress pretty much. But in recent spate ive been devastated with the club style nor their transfer and buying policy pretty much that im getting angry with the club. They cant keep star players properly, they cant buy star players properly and they even do not have the guts to lure star players to the club!!! What could be worst, as the club been nicknamed as a supermarket of star players. Yes, star players of AFC leave the club once they are star to the heaven, playing as a rival against their breed-ed club.

 How agonizing was that! It made me wonder, is this the club that ive been idolized for so long?? The club that lost its fang, fading into the back curtain of emirates stadium. Geezz, who to be blamed? Club's billionaire owners? Shareholders? The manager, Arsene Wenger? or simply the change of attitude of the players? its very hard to pin point this but one thing for sure, Arsenal FC is crumbling down inch by inch. Hope someone or something can change this situation! I cant think of supporting another club. Hopefully the club can be back to its previous Glory! Can it?

Disaster movie

For 2 days ive been watching 2 different disaster movie on a building. To be precise the white house. 'White house down' & 'Olympus has Fallen'. How humans greed take its toll demolishing a nations capital and employing vast amount of weapons to achieve their target. Looks scary, but i just hope it wont happen in real life. Let just imagination makes us wander in fantasy. One thing amazed me for certain is the special effect. Its superb. All those explosion, the gore bullet penetrating human body, those blood splashing out, the debris flying all over, is all in all magnificent to watch.

Boundaryless Imagination

Im sure many have seen rugrats the Nickelodeon cartoon series of small babies with their pesky naughtyness in a cute way. Well today while surfing thru, i found a site with very creative idea of showing how the 80's series of nickelodean cartoon character will be in their 20's, grown up, matured and visibly younger teen.

Wow, very very creative indeed. Check out the link below. I felt awsome with the idea!! hahaha just imagine how other comic characters will be in this time from the 80's, few i could think of, sesame street, teenage mutant ninja turtles, captain America, tellytubbies. Hahaha imagination without boundary indeed!! :)

http://celestedoodles.tumblr.com/tagged/rugrats

Fengshui

Ive never trusted or paid an attention towards fengshui or better known as chinese astronomy in my life. But yesterday on my mother and my sister's suggestion, ive decide to give it a try. Fengshui ive went. A small remote fengshui shop at north west penang. Somewhere near batu maung. My sis brought me to the shop, she is pretty much familiar with the shop as she trust fengshui and been in touch with the fengshui master (lady master) pretty well. I feel astonished by her prediction on my current and future charts. Especially for the current ones. All my bad luck, terrible time and difficulties seems well predicted which was taken me by surprise. Wow, its indeed a shocking one. For all the bad omens, the fengshui master gave me some remedy to be placed at home to overcome them and ive decide to give a try. Things like red colored floor mat, perfectly rounded stones to be placed under the kitchen stove and even coins to be placed on a metal container facing certain direction is supposingly to ward away bad luck and bring me good luck and good flow of wealth which is what im badly in-need for at the moment!! Interestingly enough my mind was in a state of hypnotized on all the advise and information that master says. I guess its due to too much of impact on bad times :( , alas ive decided to follow her advise very carefully. Ive brought up all the items that she mention and now im ready to place them as per her advise. Ive tried many ways to get me luck change, well no harm trying on fengshui, so ive decided to step in. Hope all the energy, element and good luck shines upon me not to mention good health and prosperous amount of income. Crossing my fingers. I will definitely blog on the outcome in probably 1 or 2 weeks time, depend on the results. Till then c ya folks.

Beyerdynamic Headpiece

Couple of days back i brought myself a headpiece. Its from beyerdynamic model XP3. Went to straights quay with my wife to check around for a headpiece. Ive already own one from sennheiser, but its more like a DJ Pro style and its quite painful for my ears to wear after certain duration of time listening to music with the headset. Thats why ive decided to change to a headpiece instead. The shop at Straights quay 'Jaben Malaysia' is at 2nd floor in the mall. I had to spend nearly an hour to decide the best headpiece for my liking and found this XP3 by beyerdynamic is pretty much to my taste :). Good bass, Good clarity and crisp sounds make me fall in love with it. Well impressive equipment from Germany. Still enjoying listening to musics while at office. Nice yo! :)

Singam-2

Watched 'Singam-2' last night. Wow, superb superb superb. Excellent power packed performance by Surya. Comedy of Santhanam makes me rolling on the floor laughing (Rofl).. Hahahaha. Overall, its one hell of a action packed comedy movie package worth every moment to watch! Planning to watch this movie again in next 1 or 2 days.. cant wait.. :)

My rating:

Varama ellei Sabama ?

Wonder what is the path of light for me.. Varama ellei sabama? (translation of: is it a gift or a curse?). This few days after my fathers death, my mind is not in one place.. to be precise in peace.. i felt something larger going to happen. Is it for me? or for anyone else? Im trying my best not to think negative, but surely this is not the actual me, thinking things and imagining things relatively.. What should i do? Ive lost hope on faith this few days. Tried to stand in front of the altar closing my eyes, with a deep breath focusing on things but ive failed. Wonder what should i do. I just wish whatever it is.. not a bad ones cause im not in a state of accepting bad things right now.. Il just leave it to the time to tell.. if its a gift or a curse which awaits me....

Soul Patch

Completed my fathers final prayers to rest his soul in peace. The last couple of days I was extremely buzy with arrangements and stuff. All went well. I must thank the dedication and support given by my relatives countless of days on helping us arrange and book stuffs for us. Without them we are generally doomed. Happy at last.

Good bye Father!

2nd of June. I thought it would be a normal day on my life. Never knew thats the day i would loss a person called father. I had a preety bad relation with my father. Never did i saw even once a good side of him. Not an evil person, but i never had an absolute bonding like how rest of father and son out there. He is a person on his own term. Hardly loved or cared for the family, Im not saying this to express how degradefull he is, but i understand to a certain extend that this is how he was brought up. Full of luxury without the sense of love & care. So thats how ive been brought up. Whenever i saw anyone with full love and and care for their father, i feel sad as why i been denied such love. Such time i made a promise that i will never make such a scenario to happen for my childrens. Enough is enough as how i had it in my life, i want my sons to feel the love and caring how a father would provide.

He is 65 years old, with a medical history of diabetic and hypertension but withoutany history of heart based complication. His death is due to heartattack. I was beside him as he breathed for the last time. I was on tears during the funeral. For me the tears is not for the love or his affection but rather a sign of thanks for giving me an initial, giving me a symbol, bringing me to this world and of course tears of thinking my mothers situation.. husbandless.

Dad
at many times, i thought bad and act bad towards you.
at many times, i raised my voice towards you.
at many times, i acted selfishly ignoring your emotion.
at many times, i disobey you
at many times, i disrespect you
at many times, i hurt your feelings

for all those i can only pray for appologies. I just wish we will meet again some day, some place
and we could make things up..  please forgive me.. and rest in peace.

Your son, Gauthemen.

Crushed Plan

Planned big but in the end crumbled with multiple unexpected things. I expected to have a wonderfull weekend with my mother at my house over the weekend. Just because of that I had planned and prepared for almost 2 week's. But out of suddent in an unexpected twist everything goes beyond what I dreamt. Now I feel this is the worst weekend and the worst planned event ever. I wondered can I go thru another round of planning spree again?! Certainly no. Not in near time.. here goes my miserable weekend... Crush crush crushed..

Maryan

Maryan..New word for me. Never before heard that name. Well.. i downloaded the song last week but was buzy with work stuff so couldnt find a time to listen to it. Today enjoyyyyyyyyed listening to it. Awsome composition by A.R Rahman. The tunes are fresh and foot tapping honestly to say. Not to mention those african beat.. Awsome job done A.R. Cant wait for the movie.. :)

Cough Cough Cough

Ive been coughing for the past few days now.. very badly.. Its the after effect of the flu that hit me days back. The cough gives me headache now and then.. Even at night i couldnt sleep in peace :(
Damn.. So far i havent visit the doctor yet, been taking some cought syrup brought from a pharmacy nearby my house i guess that wont help. I will go to see the doctor now..