Exactly this date, on December 27, 2005 i typed my first blog, its on remembering tsunami. I wrote it like a simple remembrance to the victim and hey! here i am on the same date December 27, 2014.. 10 years from the day i start to blog. I couldn't believe that i have been blogging for freaking 10 years!!!! Wow. Thats a 3652 days of story!! (not exactly, since i didn't blog every single day). However what an achievement it is. I'm so happy that ive utilized the technology of blogging very much.
At any rate, over the years this blog has made me some new friends and in some respects helped get me where I am today. Its been an interesting net journey that i will never going to forget!
Happy 10th Years anniversary for my blog! and a BIG thank you to all my blog readers !! :)
I'm back! Back from a sweet 10 days vacation to India. Its been a week since im back, yet still have no time to blog :(. Well here i would like to share some of my memories in India. First my ever impression of Tamil Nadu would be the love to the people, the atmosphere, the culture, wow how amazed i felt. Felt very proud seeing for the first time the Tamil culture at its core. Eventhou development and economically its still backward and left behind, it able to sustain wide variety of rich culture, some are very hard to forget at one glance. I'm surprised with those temple architectures and wonderfully protected cultures still exist there till date. Happy that other extremist cultures are at bay in Tamil Nadu! Yea very happy about that.. :)
Foods, eventhou i didnt enjoy that much, most of the time its a simple pleasant Indian dishes which one could get everywhere. Our driver did a good job hanging around with us, keeping us a little comfy at times where both of us tired. Hahaha! Well i certainly missing Tamil nadu, Madurai, Tanjore to name a few. Those places eventhou one cannot find a mall, a big extravagant shopping complexes or any luxury locations, culturuly its magnificient!! and i believe no one can deny that.
The only thing i hated a bit on my visit to india is our detour to Kerala, cochin to be precise. Honestly i made a big mistake landed at that place! Eventhou they are much developed, cleaner and more 'richer' in some way then their neighbour Tamil Nadu, but those peoples attitude would make one swear never to land there again! As soon as one identified you are a tamilian, by the way you talk to others, thats it. They will start to treat you as if you were an unwanted disease or an alien alike. Frankly speaking the next round my visit to India (Oh yea, im going again very soon!) im NOT going to visit kerala again, ever! Unless any circumstances which is unavoidable. But i would make my best assure not to waste a single dollar there.
I really missed Tamil Nadu, eventhou its not clean, dusty, crowded at most time, the road full of potholes, non respecting traffic users, yet still i have a speacial love, a speacial bond which is hard to explain. Something which will remain in my heart forever! Felt like i was born there before, maybe on my previous birth? Well il leave it to my mind and my heart to find for the answer.
So, that's it folks.. end of my rather short blog of visit to India.
Ive done with my flight, hotel bookings and the packing's of course. Only thing left, is to say a temporary goodbye to the country where i born and head towards the country where im emotionally attached! India! I will try my level best on keep up posting on my whereabouts and the interesting things im gonna explore, depending on my internet connection of course! :)
Happy with the development my mum has regaind conciousness after 5 hours in the operation theater. When i talk to her after she came back to her ward, eventhou she couldnt speak up, she shows her thumbs up.. an ok sign.. what a relief i was.. after 7 months of suffering, i just hope she will be all well and be back with her normal life once again!
Thanks to the god for hearing my prayers. I will fulfill the prayers very soon coming thaipusam! :)
Never came across my mind of this day. Im feeling stressed like its never before. Praying and praying for the best news out. Waiting at the hospital with the clock ticking every second is very very painfull. My mother is undergoing surgery for CSF leak. A type of disorder where brain protecting fluid keeps dripping thru her nose every time. We thought ita a running nose, till we get to know about it few months back. The doctors said they can give a 100% confirmation of a successful surgery.. yes thats the news i want to hear. Yet still im feeling skeptical. I cant imagine a life without her! Feeling emotionally stressed right now.
Dear god, please make me strong.. i want my mum back.. Please dont take her away from me!!
Ive always loved iranian or persian carpet for its authentic wool weaved finishing. Eventhou its expensive, loved the way to walk on them. Felt so comfortably relaxing. Yesterday went out to purchase some other stuff but changed my mind thanks to my another half, that i bought a wonderful, expensive, authentic, silk type wool carpet. Since yesterday i can resist on walking on top of it.
Been listening to "I" music.. the upcoming Tamil mega movie in making for almost 2 years now. Its directed by my favorite director Shankar. Cant wait for the movie. As most know, extravaganza, magnum opus, beyond imagination is the word perfect for shankar's movie. Im sure he have kicked in the same element on this movie too. Cant wait!
Till then.. ive 'merselayiten' with the songs.. *no idea what it meant thou* :)
After nearly 2 month of depressed, clueless, agonizing, missing time.. im back!
i hope its for good as for few days now ive been trying to sort things up. Hope im back to where iam. Too much things have going on the past which caused me to have a lack of dedicated time to blog. I know ive been saying that for the past few post, but i have a feeling im back for good. Bless me whoever you are for me to come back to normal :)
Thank you folks.
I wonder how is it like when we go thru days without talking to anyone. Its like a mental torture is it? The feel of emptiness, the feel of being left out, being completely invisible to nature. Without any type of sound wave moving along you. It would feel like in outer space right. The force of gravity cuts down sound wave. Yet still its a physically and emotionally pain full to bare with. Recent day's I went thru such a scenario. Well its not like ive been left out in the space. But eventually landed in such a scenario that im pretty much sure all family men will land In one day. Hopeless decision sometimes comes in the form or enemy within. Well i feel too tired to describe that in details here. But one thing for sure. I do stand on my own term. My pride and ego control ably sometimes comes with the decision that I take. And im very proud of that!
Religious conversion seems like have became a popular thing nowadays. Funny part is the reason for the conversion seems to me pretty absurd, full of rubbish reasons. Parents death, Marriage failure, Inner peace and lots of lots of crappy reasons. Im suprised with all this reasons. Well it is every man's independent decision on which path to follow in his life. But for me its a wide change of life. and the person who does convert seems happy with this.
For me religion is not only a spiritual path, its a way of life. Its a pure step that leads a man thru out his life cycle. Just imagine, since birth our parents brought us up in one religion then out of sudden we embrace another ones.. So is our life complete in this case? Yes arguing on this will take the topic more deeper and unwanted debate. But my simple question, is it necessary? What the god on the other religion had done to infuriate a person to jump to the other? Who to blame in this case? or does this an action blamable?
All this questions keep flowing in my mind. Im not a person hatred towards any particular religion. But its just the ridiculous logic which keeps me in an argumentative state.
This post is for Yuvan. Such a bright musical composer of Tamil cinema. Well this is his life and his choice, who am i to argue. All this is just my 2 cents.
Another year, another occasion.. another celebration or should i say prayer day. Well its clearly misinterpretation involve here. Today is Thaipusam day in hmm most of the country where Tamil peoples are. For me Thaipusam widely is misinterpreted as a celebration by many surprisingly! as its more towards prayer to a specific god.. Lord Murugan. I'm surprised my colleges are telling me "hey happy thaipusam" well i wondered to myself.. what should i do? go shopping? buy new clothes? visit friends and family? eat and sleep? Hahaha its a prayers day for the god and nothing to celebrate about! Well that's what happen when you live in a multi racial society that lacks the understanding of certain culture. For this year, its a somber day for me. As i did not participate for the prayers at any point. Why? Since my fathers demise, its in Hinduism rules that one should not observe any prayers, celebrate any festive, or make a large scale celebration & etc. My father passed away last year June so till June 2014 (which is exactly a year), no celebration or prayers of any sorts are to be done by me. Well since there is a rule, its better for me not to break them. I'm pretty sure there are some intangible reasons behind this. I missed the prayers to my lovely god lord murugan. Well for now im targeting next year for a better prayers and offerings for him.
What im doing this year? well sitting in the office and typing this blog.. Hahaha. Supposingly i should just sit at home but i rather come to office to forget all the thaipusam hype and celebration prayers that im missing right now.
வெற்றிவேல் முருகனுக்கு அரோகரா!!!!!
One of the movie that i found extremely insulting is a tamil movie namely "naveena saraswathy sabatham". In the name of comedy the movie insults Hindu gods to the core!! How worst this directors are until they found messing with religious sentiment in comical genre very good? I felt very sad with the movie and cursed not only the director, but together with Tamil Nadu censor board. They allowed the film! Wow! Why did they banned "Bombay" in which they said insulting muslim religion? Wouldn't this movie regarded same way? Why the bias?? Do they need to wait till someone make a formal complain or few peoples to protest then they will take action? Good job Tamil Nadu government! To my surprise, the tamil nadu people are quiet with the movie. It's really fascinate me.
To the director 'K. Chandru' of Naveena saraswathy sabatham, if you by chance saw this blog, my message to you, please don't come up with another such stupid movie, please dont play with religious sentiment again. I know you tried very hard to copy the english movie 'Hangover'. Seriously nothing so comedy about it!
Today is ponggal festival in Malaysia. Even thou its not really recognised in malaysia like how it was in India. The festive is celebrated in small scale in Malaysia. This year my celebration is as minimal as possible. More to say just some prayers at home, eat vege foods prepared by my wife and watch tv programs.
Today is my wife's birthday.. initially i have no idea what present I should buy for her. It went on a big dilemma thinking what present to buy. Whether a good fragrant perfume or an expensive dress and etc.. Well yesterday I decided something diffrent. Instead of me choosing the right gift for her, I decided to bring her to the mall and let her choose the gift she like. And finally its over, bought for her a nice wrist watch. Its small nice and elegant. Perfect for her hand. She likes the watch thou.. Well, Happy Birthday dear! :)
Its just been 7 days from the new calendar year. New days born to remind man kind, new tasks, new path, new discovery awaiting us with every second of the clocks tick. I had rather agitated day as 7 days pass by. I hate 2013 very much, for one sole reason. For me its the year of death. So much death ive seen on the year alone. Terrifyingly many to count off personally. I wished for a peacefull year 2014 to be. But not as its comes by. Early morning yesterday i had a shocking news from my mom. My cousin sisters husband passed away in India while working on a surgery for liver transplant. He was a great guy, nice to chat with, straight to the point and a peacefull looking guy. He had a severe liver detoriation problem for several years. After a donor came up to donate her liver, he the donor and my cousin sis went to India for the transplant. Unfortunately god prefers him to be by his side rather then to wake alive. Whats more sad was he just became a father for a beautifull baby girl.
Sometimes i couldn't really understand why our life is so cruel. Why do we born? Why do we need to spend so little time on this life? Why we had to endure painful life and die in the midst of happiness? Such a bad life indeed.
Dedicated to my bro-in-law Kumaresan Gunalan (1980-2014). Rest in Peace bro!
Thilagam, please be strong! you have to endure the life for the sake of your child.