A day before New Year 2010.

In less then 7 to 8 hrs the world will move in to a new year "2010". Double digit of the 21st century i would say.. Nice to hear the scientific meaning of the number. Wow i feel very proud human mankind survived till this year.. i remember once during my study at college year 1999. I used to discuss with my college friends, year 2010? thats impossible! mankind wont survive that long.!.. geez im proven to be wrong.. i do exists still and breathing .. :)

Hahaha..

Well.. Yesterday (30-Dec-2009) i was not in a good mood. 30th Dec 2008 was a devastating day for me. The day which i feel ive done a mistake. The day im tending to forget. The day I broke off with my X. And to my surprise yesterday while surfing thru the internet late night, i happend to came across a site with some wedding pictures and again i was terribly devastated to see the picture of my X wedding picture's. Didnt know she has married. Well, i feel happy and the same time i feel pain thinking have i did a mistake!? Mistake broking off and mistake clicking the internet site. Well whatever happends is for good. Im happy for her and i myself are very happy now. Happy then ever with my moderate life alone and peacefull. Whatever it is as they says.. Life goes on rite ?

Well tomorow night my cousins have prepared a New year celebration at their house in kulim. Cant wait to party. Feels like tons of happiness ready to burst out.. well afterall once in a year.. haha :)

Il try to get some pics uploaded if i had a chance..

For today, nite im going to temple.. relax my mind.. surrender my atma to the divine.. searching for peace, harmony and prosperous path ahead of the new year.. :)

Advance Happy new year 2010 to all my blog readers.. whom ever u are.

be happy and don't forget to make the people around you happy, life is only once remember that.

till next year blogey.. c ya all :)

Countdown to 2010..

2010.. the time is ticking... the end of 2009 is near.. tick.. tick.. tick..tick..

and my heart beat is getting faster and faster... my mind is not in one piece.. im trying to control my self.. yet its messed with alots of worries...

My life is getting in a transformation.. going to another level of human man kind's life cycle..

"Marriage".. I never felt so anxious and nervous in my life.. I wanted to stop the time from entering 2010.. i wanted to have a "pause" button to stop everything... yet...

the time continues to run... tick... tick... tick.. tick.. tick.. tick.. tick.. tick.. tick... the clocks needle.. keep turning.... tick.. tick..tick..tick..tick..tick..tick..tick...

entering a new phace of deja'vu..

......counting and waiting for the "d'day or the doomsday".. life will tell..

dear 2010.. make me happy.. dont make me regret.. im counting on u..!

Uh oh..

Its been a week of hybernation as i have less time to get my self blogging. Well at last here iam blogging. Well i had to update my blog on my recent vacation trip to JB. Well it was a nice one.. Wonderfull experience and of course what else one could expect with friends together.. wow.. we had lots of fun. The glass temple that i visited was magnificient. Unfortunately to me, we reach the temple late 10pm, hence most of my camera snaps did not fall as precise and good that i expected. But the mood and the atmosphere of the temple knocks my speech off. It was great beyond my imagination. The temple staffs as well, are very humble and the hospitality they shown are beyond our expectation. Never came accross a temple members that humble and down to earth in penang.. Wow.. that itself a good foundation for a temple to grow.. a big kudos to them !!

Me (sitting from right) & my friends at Melaka

Well we didnt stay in JB afterall... final minute plan change..we drive straight from JB to Melaka non stop. Had a quick shower at one of the highway R&R.. and head straight to melaka's some of historical monuments.. had a quick breakfast and head straight to KL. By the time we reach KL its allready 4pm on the evening. Stayed at KL. They enjoy the nightlife at KL's *(notorious) bukit bintang.. Well i dont like it.. my friends like the place... its bunch of negative side of KL.. anyway..

Sunday 12pm.. we moved out from KL and head back to PG.. reached home around 9:30.. Hmm was very tired.. luckily the next day i was on leave.. well... its a nice and exciting trip to those places. Not as happening on how we go to Pahang.. anyway its memorious.. :)

Great vacation..

Well my friends did mention few places like "Langkawi", "Cameron Highland" and stuff like that for next year's vacation plan.. well lets c how it goes.

Ok thats all for now. Till next blogey, chiow fellaz....

Sweet sunshine

After long dragging, sweating and tireless days... finally !!!! im going for a vacation with my friends.. Wow.. how eager iam counting this coming friday.. i feel its too far..ahhh cant stand the desperation.. Well me and my friends are going to a place or shall i call state where i never imagine in my toughest dream.. JOHOR! wow.. im going to JB .. I wonder all the time, what business do i have there to step my feet to the most southest place in malaysia.. well its proven wrong.. finally all my wonders are false.. i am going to step my feet there.. damn i feel shame of my though.. hehehe.. We are going there for one reason.. the Glass temple.. well its the worlds first religious structure made completely of glass.. well it fascinates me and my friends all this while and now we have decided to be there and to touch the building complex ourselve.. wow while writing this blog my heart keep pumping fast... eager to be out of penang for this 3day just to be there.. haha i guess ive been kept myself in a confinement for way too long.. now the vacation mood have started !! yay !!!

Currently preparing the stuffs il be bringing over for the vacation.. so.. il post more once im back from my vacation... till then c ya guys..

Saturday function..

Attended my cousins wedding last saturday.. Its far away at Ipoh.. I never stepped my foot at Ipoh.. probarbaly my first. Couldnt remember on any old occurancec i went there. Well we went by bus to the wedding.. me and my mom. Initially mom pastured me to go by car.. but i didnt cause dont dare to take the hill slops of ipoh.. i remember hearing it so dangerous.. and did at once glance the terrifying slops while on my way to KL. So by bus then.. it was not rushing we made it on time. Eventhough the weather was not that good, we able to made it. The taxi driver a malay fella is quite experienced of ipoh i guess. Just one tip on the place and he bring us straight to the place "wow". The wedding was nice.. just nice.. not so frenzy and not so lengthy.. about 1 to 2 hours its done. We had the dinner at the wedding. Had a few chats with my cousins.. and have my cousins drop me and my mom to the bus station, initially bought the bus ticket earlier, just in case we couldnt get a ticket on time. Did have a hicup on finding the correct bus station. Cause there is 2 bus stations in Ipoh, one seems a bit "antic" if i remember carefully they call it "medan kit" and the other one "medan gopeng". We were suppose to land at medan gopeng as the bus ticket was taken there but landed at medan kit.. hahaha.. i wont scold my cousins as they are preety new there to.. furthermore night travelling on an unknown place.. is somewhat expected to have some hicups.

Reached home around 11:30pm at butterworth.. Hmmm... everyone including my cousins teased me.. .im the next in line for the wedding..hahaha.. intresting...! welll.. lets c about that.. Eventhough ive informed my parents or give a slight hint on proceed with my wedding next year... well.. we will c how it goes...

For my cousin sis Kamalesh who tie the knot with Manoj.. Happy married life guys.. :)

Decision of Life

Ive been for the past few days though, think and tried to understand the real meaning of marriage.. why do people married ? what is the significance of getting married.. what do they know.. what do they feel .. basically why marriage ? Its keep mingling on my head these past few days.. Ive been thinking beyond the aspect of marriage.. the responsibility.. the life beyond marriage.. Im started to think all these after my parents rushing to get me married... Im not sure if its a rush or good time.. but i dont want to make a decisions which will cause me havoc for the rest of my life.. Im not against getting married but things are wondering me .. am i suitable enough to get married ? prepared to face the next part of human cycle ? ready to face the oceans of challenges ? Hmm... it feels way to scary to think of this.. Ive yet to give a conscent to my parents thou they are waiting for my answer. Indeed a tough decision to made. Yet im running out of time.. Ive made silly regrettable decisions in my life which im trying to erase from my memory.. Will this be one of them appended on my list.. ? will i be happy.. will i make my surroundings happy.. I cant place all hope to time and god to decide.. or my faith.. or play a wait and see game.. I have to make a solid decision.. a decision which will mark the unfolded event that im going to go thru..

I just wish there is some sorts of binocular or magic mirror that i could see or prophesy the next half of my life..

"decision"... a painful choice for a man !

Windy November

Geezzz its been a while since i last blog...and that was some days after deepavali... haaa im using the internet daily and yet have less chance blogging.. buzy.. ya.. buzy buzy buzy with my life...and today..one fine windy November...i could able to blog... its nearly 6 o clock... im about to take bath... yet just played some computer games on my laptop.. just then suddenly remembered my blogging things... well life goes on plain... nothing new.. except of few life changes i guess... mom somehow giving me some slight pressure on my marriage.. yea i know i could not be single now as my age is getting increased.. ive given her the green light.. most probarbaly next year... i will be moving on to a new life.. marriage life.. i couldnt imagine the responsibility that i will be having... furthermore my new house is completed.. im just waiting to get the keys to my new house... after that...im planning to modify my house.. im trying to make some changes as to my mood... mostly after that... my wedding... arghhh.... i could not thing of my spending allocation... im preety much tight with spending when think of those... well... im just wishing for a non-disasterous life change.

Hmmm putting that a side... 1 more month and its new year.... cant wait for 2010... some of my friends freak me out on the 2012 thingyy... i keep wonder myself is the world really will be over by then... if yes.. then i have 2 more years to spend my sweet life... gosh!! thats awfull....

think about it ... freaks me out.. yet... doubtfull... hmmm im about to see 2012 with my _+_+_ ... next week... hope... its nice...yet i dont plan to have the assumption of my life end as the film is... fictions... had its limit... do i ?

lets c about it... till next blog... chiow...

Soulfull deepavali..

This year... as many of my blog readers aware... im not celebrating deepavali (diwali).. due to the death of my grandmother somewhere back in April.. so not so big celebrations this year.. i miss those firecrackers, new clothes, and most importantly oil bath and a early morning visit to temple.. Just miss it.. This year i had rather simplicitic year pray at home.. eat foods.. and watch the television.. Only on the nite.. i went to my cousins house in Kulim to have a mini deepavali feast and some firecrackers fired by my cousin.. i didnt play this time.. have to respect the reason of not-celebrating deepavali... snapped few pictures of my family.. yet to upload them still stuck on my sis camera... Well... the following days was holiday.. till monday.. Didnt go anywhere still.. At home.. .food... TV.. food.. TV... food.. TV.. hmmmm... miss those past years... miss those fun :(

Well.. lets see what 2010 have in store for me.. Hopefully i would celebrate in prosperous way.. *with someone speacial* ? No idea.. only time will tell...

Till next blogey.. chiow.. its 12:30 now.. about to go out for lunch... c ya guys..

Weekends at KL

Last Thursday to Saturday i was at KL, attending a rather personal function at PWTC... able to capture some pics of me and my family...

Thats me second from the Left with my Sis, mom and Dad... we were at Cititel Hotel.. before going out to PWTC...

me at PWTC... looks freaking exhausted.. and Cant wait to go back to PG!

i HATE KL... the traffic jams are killing me..

Birthday

Just had a rather simplified birthday 2 days ago... nothing speacial... no party no cakes and no visits.. i was at home most of the day.. since its a long holiday. I asked my mom not to cook heavy meals but simple foods... anyway its navarathri week and im on full 9 days vege.. so.. had to sacrifice creamy cakes and cookies.. :((

Anyway...4 days holiday is something quite long... its hari raya holiday in malaysia so initially i do have a get out plan with my family or friends but.. nothing materialize.. i spend rather smooth and quite days at home and also visited temple as for the navarathri festive.. went to my favourite temple at kampung paya butterworth helping hand for decorating the ratham (chariot) which will be used on the last day of navarathri (vijaya dasmi) ..

Hmmm... i will be having quite tiring month next month.. travelling.. Yea i will be travelling to KL for something ive been waited for almost 2 and half years.. i dont want to elaborate more on that.. nothing big... its just that i will be going there with my family on Oct-8 till Oct-11...

Ive taken a long leave ... hope my manager is ok with it :P..

Oh well..... im not planning to take any leave this deepavali festival next month.. No deepavali for me :( since the demise of my grandmother has not completed one year.. Hmmm the one day that i will be waiting to celebrate has to be sacrifised... Anyway mom plans to do muruku (the famous deepavali cookie).. not to celebrate.. but to give to my neighbours...hmmm... i wish things are diffrent... anyway lets see what next year has for me... Im wishing for a sweet joyfull deepavali with my family.. wish to had it.. !

Mr.2010 can u grant me the boon... ?

Long weekend..

Woweeee... weekend is near.. hmm it will be a long weekend.. since independence day is on monday.. haa cant wait.. :) my cousin is coming back from uni this weekend.. and im sure we will be having a plan to go and hang out.. hmmm i cant stop thinking of last years independence day celebration where i was partying with friends at KL.. the moment i will never forget the rest of the coming independence day haha... it was simply wonderfull... :)

This year even though we didnt plan such an activity, i plan to just go out with my cousins and sis... to somewhere nearby... btw, not to mention the A(H1N1) that creeps me out now and then... feel too deadly to even go shopping.. just when someone sneeze i will run away far.. hoping im not the next one on the hospital list...

ohh well... anyway... weekends.. here im coming...

:)

At last...

At last.. im clutched out from hell.. yea a very very massive hell of so called buziness... wow.. ive been idling for over a month from blogging... what a waste.. :(

Ive been very buzy of the month of july.. alots of things been happening.. but i unable to write all of them here.. cause im surely believe this one post wont be sufficient.. haha.. Nothing big.. nothing huge.. just been occupied with lots of stuffs.. both personal , family.. and stuff...

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Haaaa i can believe the sence of blogeyness... its friday today.. my favourite day.. and im very happy to return back to blogey.. :)

Il keep updating my blog from time to time.. ok.. its 8oclock morning.. i need to start my work...

till next blogey chiow for now my friends.. :)

Buzy bee...

Ive been too buzy with works, stuffs and my life these days causing me to limit my time to blog :( ... but hope to change it this coming months and so forth.... Hmmmm... ive been humming again and again... tuning again and again... it really mesmerize me & did makes me to drop a tear... how touching.. .. hence ive wrote it in my blog:)

oru thevathai paarkum neramithu

miga aruginil irunthum thuuramithu

ithayamey oh.ivalidam. oh

uruguthey..oh..

intha kathal ninaivugal thangathey

athu thungum pothilum thunggathey

paarkathey oh endralum oh

ketkathey..oh

ennai enna seiythai penney

neram kaalam marantheney

kaalgal irandum tharaiyil irunthum

vaanil parakiren

enna aagiren engu pogiren

vazhigal therinthum tholaithu pogiren

kathal endral oh..pollathathu

purigindrathu.oh

kangal irukkum karanam enna

ennai naaney ketteney

unathu azhagai kanathaney

kangal vazhuthey

marana nerathil un madiyil orathil

idamum kidaithal iranthum vazhuven

un pathathil mudigindrathey

en saalaigal oh

intha kathal ninaivugal thangathey

athu thungum pothilum thunggathey

oru thevathai paarkum neramithu

miga aruginil irunthum thuuramithu

Torn King "Durian"

Weekendfull of durian.. hahaha...

its durian season now and i could see most of the roadsides people are selling these fruit.. plus rambutan, mangosteen and much more... i had durian as well... last weekend at my cousins house.. a mini gathering.. we ate plenty much durian, me and my uncle went out to hunt, bargain and of-course find for a good smelling durians. We happened to found one at kulim.. its a old malay guy... we bargained the price... and packed the durians into my car... around 20 of them... ouchhh... my car absorber surely cries for the weight... After reached home... dig in to open the thorny fruit for the sweet fruit... Grrrrr!!#&$@ im the opener.. and as the opener of the fruit... i got numbers of torns stabbed on my palm... :( but yet the good part... i got to choose the best fruit for my taste.. hahahaha... then we had mangosteen...

After had the durians... roughtly around 5 evening... i got a shocking experience... I couldnt start my Car !!!! damn.. thats horrifying.. i had to call the insurance company for a auto-assist.. luckily enough thry came in and check.. found no problem.. it starts...

Probarbaly my car protest on me because of the durian i put.. arrghhh!!! its time to get my car serviced... probarbaly this weekend....

ok thats all for a sweet and shock durian week... hahaha... till next blogey.. c ya all .... :)

Sweet Sweet Friday

Ahhh.. Friday.. finnaly... !

I love friday, not because the next day will be weekends, but simply love the mood of friday... as always.. :)

Well.. nothing speacial on the weekends.. except for fetching my sis at the airport who is returning back from Madurai, India after 2 weeks there for a conference... hmmm no idea when and what time she will be landing.. probarbaly today she will call up for the info..

Anyway.. sunday.. im planing to go somewhere.. probarbaly to forget the "misserable tensions" that im getting now.. ... but ive no plan where to go... probarbaly for a movie? hangout with my cousins? friends? or worst case... sleeping on my bed till late noon !! hehehe... i dont do that always.. .. but will have it as an option... anyhow... as long as im out from the cocoon will be good for me..

Ok its 8am in de morning now... got a meeting to catch and will be packed with work stuffs whole day.... Till next blogey... C ya all...

Options in Life

I got a very misserable options to choose... i have to choose between "Book, Life or Money".. i dont know which one i should choose.. If i choose Book.. i will be prosperous in a year time.. If i choose Life.. i would be happy now and probarbaly continue with it.. if i choose Money... i have to generate it thruout to a point i could reach the summit of Life and Book... Im confused with these options.. these options really arent make me happy.. im trying to be happy (acting to be happy) but virtually... sad with these options... ahhhhh... i just hope god sees all this things that im facing..

options in life really are cruel sometimes..

Sad day for me today...

I cant decide these options as one of the options that i choose for sure will make me sad... for the other 2.. .i feel like crying... why the options.. why cant human being live without any options...

is this how life suppose should be...

i wish for a miracle.. in the mean time i have to move the dice for an option.. an option which will make me regret... probarbaly for the rest of my coming life..

I hope god sees all this game of his... and he is happy for making me sad :( ...

Hazy Day

Arghhh... Haze is back and its getting worst.. Its very hazy these days.. i could smell the wind taste like a burned tree ash.. arghhh... getting to worst.. the hotty weather.. i feel im virtually burning ! god save me !!

Yesterday (although its hazy out there), my mom forced me to bring her out to visit 2 of my elderly relative who are unwell.. So there i go, surpassing this dangerous haze, all time sweaty weather... bringing my mum, my aunt and cousin to Tanjung Bungah, far away after out from the ferry, around 10km.

Stay there couple of hours, after then head to Bukit mertajam visit another elderly relative before head home. Quite tiring.. To get things worst, i got back ache now :(

my cousin told me could be because of the jackfruit we ate on saturday.. haaahh.. i think i would be going to the hospital today after work, probarbaly a jap would save my backache problem.. im moving like a robot.. could feel a sharp pain...:(

anyway.. im just praying there would be a rain outside.. its getting from bad to worst now..

ok.. just has my lunch.. i got a meeting to catch.. till next blogey.. chiow..

Saturday blues..

Its been a long holiday last weekend.... Yea replacement holiday on Monday.. cool..

i had a preety intresting weekends actually.. went out visitng my relatives.. going out shoping..

and intresting of all... i went to "Market Street" in Penang.. To those who are not aware of the place.. its a street in penang.. also dubbed the Little India of Penang.. there are alots of shops selling quite number of stuffs... On Saturday i bring over my mom, sis and my lil cousin sis who came over for a stay at my house... we went out to shopping for my Sis who is leaving to India for her research convention this saturday.. On the mean time i had a shopping for myself too... Mom forced me to buy a gold ring for me.. and yea i bought it.. its a gemstone ring.. small ones... the price.. hahahaha.. quite hefty... actually i allready owned a gemstone ring.. its a nice Yellow Saphire (my birthstone) ring... but its too big.. so i brought a smaller version, something that can fit on my mid finger perfectly.... i dunt know yet hows its gonna look alike cause it would be crafted for my design and be ready only this friday... So this friday il be going there to collect it.. :)

Hmmmm... hopefully this gemstone ring brings me luck.. luck and more luck... inclusive of small amounts of $$$$$ money of course kekekeke :P

ok lunch time... i gota be off now.. till next blogey.. chiow..

Empty mid year

Hahhhh today is public holiday .. the agongs birthday.. and here iam in front of my laptop typing words of nonsence... arghh i wish i could runaway for a nice sweet holiday.. its been a while since ive last enjoyed a wonderfull holiday with my friends or family.. I wish i could have it again... but still yet i feel very uneasy spending unecessarily nowadays even for going out such as this... hmmm uncertainity of the economic i guess.... oh well... anyway.. its been quite a while ive post an update on my blog.. its June and this is my first post for the month.. as usuall life is going slow with no change as of now eventhought it is middle of the year. Man how fast time flies.. right now i feel only last month was February.. but now... it is June... thats fast..

Well.. apart from that.. its been a very hot sunny day nowadays.. not even a single drop of water coming out from the cloud... the intense heat causes flu.. & fever everywhere.. not to mention im getting it too... even though im back to normal.. im coughing almost 2 weeks now..man its really annoying.. arrghhh !

Haaaahh...i wish there's winter here... all i could do now is drinking herbal tea or coconut water to bring down my body temperature.. too hot!! too hot!!

Ok.. i feel im blabering alot now.. my brain is empty to think what else to write.. its 12 o'clock noon and its saturday.. im planing to sit at my house sofa and watch TV.. thats what i could do now..

urrgghhh....

ok guys till next post... c'ya..

Been a while

Its been a while since ive last post on my blog.. reason because.. my health condition ups and down with fever & stuff like that.. Ive been in terrible shape with this stupid fever, sorethroat, cold.. and keep sneezing most of the time for that... arghhhh!!

I think its due to the weather.. its been preety hot outside lately.. these force me to stay home even during weekends... but still i catch with nonsence fevers..

i wonder whats going to happen to the world.. if its raining.. it would rain till mass flood... if its hot it will be hot till we feel were going to end up like a roast chicken... i hope this is not the end of the world.. 

hmmmm..... sitting at my office... surfing internet.. blogging.. just ate my lunch... haah.. i feel sleepy.. i have couple of meetings later... and i need to work on my project papers.. arghhh!@!(&@!^$$ i hate monday!.. monday blues really freak me out..

Mothers Day

Last sunday was mothers day.. my uncle arranged a family get together on Kulim at his house.. most of my cousins my aunts, my uncles came in.. we had a splendid feast... both vege & non-vege.. Cut cake.. and exchanged gifts & cards for the momies.. (aunts & my mother)...

Well me my mother and my sis was supposingly be on vege on this whole month due to my grandmother passed away and its not 1 month yet..... exclude my father who couldnt make it to the event..... but forced by my cousins and uncle.. i took little non-veg things ... ahhh. cant stand the persuasion...  

Anyway... i ordered the cake and the flower for the event  :).. it was a nice mothers day speacial white cream cake with full of fruits on it.. kiwi, strawbery, mango and lychee... and also a nice text with "Happy Mothers Day" on it... I.. had snapped some beautifull moments.. couldnt upload it yet as my sis took it with her to her confrence at bukit merah, taiping yesterday... *argh*.. il get  a time to load it once she returns..

We left my uncles house around 9 and reached home around 10.15...with stomach nearly explode... hehehe  what a meal... all the meals.. was prepared by my aunt.. (Expert cook).. she prepared 8 type of dishes not include vege dish too... mmmmm my tounge can still sense the taste.. hehehe welll... 

So... thats all for now... at office doing some important work...

if i have a time then il load the mothers day pics... till then.. peaceeee...

:)

Hangout

Last saturday.. i was hanging out with 2 of my cousins who came by from Kulim... me my sis and both cousins went shopping, watching movies then took dinner.. and head home quite late...

We went to watch X-Men:Wolverine.. at Sunway GSC and shoping in there too at seberang jaya.. had some light dinner at OldTown cafe.. then went home...

Woahhh.. all on my spending.. my $$$ is flying away way too fast.. 

Well anyway its worthit.. especially spending for my lovely cousin sis.. haha...

Black Friday.

For me friday is a day of pure auspicious.. its a day of divine and very calm compare with other day.. thats why i love friday alot.. But last friday it happend to be a sad day for me. My grandmother passed away on the day. After 93 years living and finally she rests in peace.. Me, mom and dad went to taiping, kamunting around morning 10.am after i went to penang airport to send my sister who is leaving to kelantan for work confrence.. she couldnt attend the funeral so left 3 of us.. 

I bought for her a big round garland as a symbol of respect.. I didnt know i would need to stay at taiping.. so i didnt bring any clothes with me.. So after i left my parents there and sit beside my grandmothers coffin for a while.. i went straight to my home in penang, the next day my aunt.. my grandmothers 2nd daughter flying from Australia to give her last respect.. so i need to fetch her from the airport.. I fetched her on saturday morning at 10am.. and reached taiping around 12:15pm.. It was rather a very somber.. sad.. and disturbing environment.. For me 3 things that i cannot take in my life no matter what.. ... 1st.. suffering.. by anyone.. 2nd.. death... 3rd.. blood. 

This 3 things will surely disturb me for days.. sometimes months.. which will cause me to be uncomfortable most of the time.. I will surely loss my appetite.. and loss my ability to be in one piece.

Well around 1.45pm.. my grandmothers body have been taken to the creamatorioum ground.. i went there to.. to perform the final rites... im her first grandson.. so i will need to be involved.. as insisted by my parents and my relatives.. my father and his 2 brothers are amonth the others who performed the final rites.....After the full hinduism rites been performed.. we came home.. taken bath... had a rather unusuall, non jovial and silent lunch.. 

As the days goes on sunday... me my father and both his brothers went again to the crematorium ground together with the function priest to collect my grandmothers bones. One could imagine the sadness.. the pain... the fear... its the moment of deja'vu..  all those clouded me just like that in seconds.. but after a while... i begin to think about it.. eventually every single person in this world has to go thru the same thing.. its a shocking experience for me.. but i manage to over come it...

After my uncle.. my grandmothers last son.. done the prayers including pour my grandmothers ash ("asthi") on the flowing river.. we head back to my grandmothers house..there again we took a shower and had a quick lunch.. before me, my parents head back to penang.. follow by other relatives heading back to their homes...

I didnt expect or even imagine in my wildest dreams that my labour day holiday.. and furthermore my favourite day.. "friday" will end up rather emotional and somber.. Well.. thats how the human life cycle is... none is imortal.. if we start to breath.. one day..eventually we will stop to breath.. For me the holiday is not important.. but its just the loved ones.. once they parted away.. the pains are speachless............... ..... ..... ........

Dedicated to my Grandmother.. Mdm.Maheswary (1916 - 2009). Om Shanti..

ASM Units

Today at 10:30am i quickly rushed to Maybank at Bayan Lepas near my work area.. to bought the "ASM units investment" thats were making news in the headlines... since it is goverment guaranteed and gives back good % of intrest value.. so.. i think why not get some for myself.. good investment for my future ... hehe.he.  :P

The bank today was full of indians, i feel like entered temple or cinema hall.. haha ..  i think its because of the newspapers which hilighted only Indians allocated ASM units are yet to grab.. chinese and partial of malays allocated are allready been grabed. I saw an indian husband and wife just beside me waiting to get their chance on these goverment opened unit. I thought it would be appropriate if i say greet them.. so do i.. after a few talk i asked them if they were to  grab the ASM units and they say yes..

To my suprise they bought the ASM units for 20, 000 "RM20k". Goooshh.. im far behind.. i just bought for 1000 unit which is 1k of course.. wow.. on my mind i was thinking the couples have a good future.. nice to see indians invest such way.. their investment x the percentage the goverment give.. nice return.. :)

I dunt know how much the intrest % will be.. ive yet to calculate.. Planning to top up another 2000 or so in few days if the unit for Indians are still available.. "hopefully"....

Ok... its 12:40 now.. my stomach is making noise.. i better go and grab

something to eat will be preety tight today with multiple meetings.. "geeeezz i hate meetings !&^%*#@&^@*##@" !

Till next blogey... c ya all..

A closing of a new Begining

Today ive closed down a one and only website of mine.. my 1st attempt of having a personal Homepage which ive maintained for over 6 years.. and today ive decided to close it down for an attempt to have a single site.. which is this site.. my blog site. 

I felt sad to close that site down.. all the years of fun of editing & coding.. every single moment spent on updating the page day and nite.. till the full birth of the site.. finally come to an end. I created that site for fun, an eager of having a personal site.. Yet i met and visited by many friends of the net.. some with a sweet notes.. some with a nasty notes.. and some with a praised words.. 

Yes it was my first attempt.. ive no idea whether what i did at the time was right of wrong.. but i enjoyed every single seconds coding it in pure html, dhtml and javas.. The say goes "every begining has its end".. and i believe the end is now.. The updates are outdated and it looks preety much childish for me to keep updating it..

hence ive decided to closing it down with a heavy heart...

To those who wonder what the URL is.. here you go..

   

   http://www.geocities.com/shri2151

I managed to place a sweet note with a re-direct link to this blog..

Hopefully those visitors have time to visit this blogs too..

C ya geocities site... il sure miss u..

ok guys.. :)

till next blogey.. 

chiow !

Delayed events info..

Events that went couple of days ago on the month of april...

My mothers birthday.. :)

it was a lovely, sweet and simple birthday... held on April-11th.. she is 56 years old now..

Here are couple of her birthday pics that i able to catch.. sorry i plan not to upload me & my family pics due to safety and spam concern.. just the cake pics will just do it.. :)

Heavy rain downpour

Today i was wet almost enitrely... it was a heavy rain early in the morning.. and i could see most of the place that i cross while going to my work place was flooded.. Luckily i bring in an extra jeans and this has saved me from extreme cold condition with wet dress :P

Its 12pm now.. about to go for my lunch..

so .. till next blogey...

Awsome but Tiresome trip

Hope the tittle explains... anyway.. i can elaborate more on my journey last saturday.. well i went to a place called "Dublin Estate" (not in Ireland or europe).. ive no idea why they call it dublin. We start our journey on Saturday at 6.30pm.. Went with my friends on a 4WD.. Straight to the state of kedah (kulim)... From Kulim hi-tech park its roughly around 1 to 2 hours journey.. The weather was very breezy and cool.. cause its started to rain.. not so heavy... but non-stop rain.. the estate became extremely muddy and slippery.. It was not as i expected... the rain... ouch is the painfull factor.. since the temple that i went is very small.. it could not factor in the amount of people who joined us.. worst to come.. no electricity.. no houses... no water.. its purely in a thick jungle like palm estate..

Thats not the end of the worst.. there is one more in the form of blood sucking tiny beasts call "Mr.leeches"... ive been sucked out of my blood nearly 8 times.. :(.. not sure should i say this is a great experience.. or should i say this is the lifestyle of the place.. i dont know... ive start with an awsome feeling but ended up terrified.. not as i expected.... But things begun to change as the morning arrives.. as i could see clearly what i couldnt at night.. the environment.. and things like that.. After a very tiring, non sleeping, leechy encountering day.... the morning seems show diffrent side.. no leeches.. (well less i could see) and the sun was bright and nice.. The best part of this trip i must say is taking the morning bath in the river.. crystal clear pure mountain water river.. wow.. the coolness the chill.. the feeling really magnetized me from going away from the place... it was very nice feeling... :)

We had our lunch and pack up around 3pm.. on the way out from the estate we managed to visit few other temples as well.. one wonderfull goosebump information that i noted is all these temples was build not few months not few years.. they were build during the reign of british empire in malaysia 5o years back... thats intresting.. the local community and visiters do manage the place well.. of couse the plantation workers too... So... its an awsome and tiresome trip alas...

Something that i couldnt forget... a rare occurance in my life.. well  wonderfull it is.. Wish to have this sorts of trip more in my journey..  Even though at a time i feel dirtier due to no proper sanitary options.. i wonder myself.. how a native of that place would survive.. how they would live.. Im educated.. the peoples staying there since birth how they know outside worlds identity..

Intresting fact..

Well thats all of now.. signing off from my Unforgetfull journey.. till next blogey.. 

chiow.. :)

Buzy month..!*@&%!@(&!#

Its been a horrible buzy month for me "March".. Work has turn to be a hell.. as im doing quite amount of works.. arghh and still couldnt help to manage myself.. ive no time to update my blog site unlike previously... ouch :(

But within all this horrible timing... ive been able to patch up here and there with my personal moments... not many... im going to a temple this sunday with my friends.. its quite far from where i stay.. around 200km from penang.. wow thats a length... yea.. just for fun..

and im going to take some pictures.. hopefully i could upload them here... 

hmmm its lunch time and im still stuck at my office cubical and doing my work.. well not hungry anyway.. i have lots of things to complete... plan to skip my lunch today.. had a very full breakfast this morning... so not hungry...

ok... til next post to come...chiow...

steps to overcome hard financial times

I found this steps to overcome hard financial times in the net.. seems good to follow.

* Hard work: All hard work bring a profit, but mere talk leads only to poverty. 

* Laziness: A sleeping lobster is carried away by the water current. 

* Earnings: Never depend on a single source of income. [At least make your

Investments get you second earning] 

* Spending: If you buy things you don't need,

you'll soon sell things you need. 

* Savings: Don't save what is left after

spending; spend what is left after saving. 

* Borrowings: The borrower becomes the lender's slave. 

* Accounting: It's no use carrying an umbrella, if your shoes are leaking. 

* Auditing: Beware of little expenses; A small

leak can sink a large ship. 

* Risk-taking: Never test the depth of the river with both feet. [Have an

alternate plan ready] 

* Investment: Don't put all your eggs in one basket. 

Slumcat

I dunt get the hype that is going on for the slumdog.. its a movie nevertheless.. but what makes me confuse is those frenzy thing the fans of all over the world creating... my main question is Slumdog Millionaire worth for oscar picture ? Bombay dreams is far more better then this slumdog..  A.R.rahman is a music genius yes i agree.. iam his fan yes i admit.. but on this film slumdog his music doesnt fit at the place.. its been stuffed with all those computerized and electronic sounds and i feel its noisy at a time.. and that goes to wins him the award... ! well i dunt know how the judges select the movie... but i feel a bit happy to see the first indian national recieve this award..

anyway i feel sad how they potray mumbai into cheap.. dirty.. low level leaving place eventhough.. it has changed alot... i just hope this slumdog hip dissapears.. 

for Rahman.. hmm... u have seems to ditch tamil music at least completely.. and focusing on hindi and international.. hope u r doing rite bro..

*to my blog readers, dont get offended.. this is my personal opinion on the slumcat.. errr i mean dog :)*

Buzy in a box

I cant get a suitable word for this topic.. basically my situation.. im in a box... and extremely buzy as if im in a box.... arrghhhhhh  my work place hectic are killing me...

plenty of works and most of the time i had to skip my lunch to complete my work... terrible terrible terrible... This is very suitable with this years "chinese calendar" animal symbol.. they year of cow.. Have to work like a cow... suitable year... :((

i feel very tired.. work work work.. and no time for myself... arrgghhh !!!

$^&*^*%&%*@$*%&#$(@&%$#(%&@$#^%$!(%#$(!%@#$(%!@~$

Economy..

Cash, money, dollar, ringit.. what ever the name is ... its too precious to think on spending.. its really weird how the economic accross the world nowadays.. too.. scary.. those dangerous terms like retrenchment, vss, job slash etc.. are very very scary.. 

I wonder when does all this things will be settled down.. 

geezz..

I need to come up with new spending structure of myself.. i have to stop spending blindly.

Which i dont usually.. my plan for a new phone and camera.. have to be gone with the wind.. :((

Peacefull Thaipusam

I feel peacefull this thaipusam.. not so crowded.. not so rushing.. everything went per plan..

We go there early.. eventhough a bit congested on the road.. and prayed.. and finished our vows fast and by 8pm  we are below the temple taking our energy suplements... "basically FOOD!"

yea.. we was ancious of to get below.. 

.. i felt the pain of taking the heavy milk pots.. the barefoot walking.. the sweatness... is all worth..

its like a test of patience and ones discipline to overcome the obstacle.. there was a point i felt like crying.. but i managed to overcome it ... and i feel very happy for it... 

Its a great devotional experience and a pure satisfaction.. the experience i would never forget till next year thaipusam.. Im really felt greatfull to Lord muruga for his blessings and his protection to me and my family for it.. all those pains are mere dust.. for me .. :)

Anyway.. to be a bald... is something embarassing.. and im wishing my hair will grow fast.. haha.. :P except for my moustache where im planning to keep it away.. a new me .. :P

Betrayal..

How do we feel being betrayed. For me betrayal is something very painfull then anything else..

neh.. this post does not indicate anything speacial.. its just that recently i got betrayed... sadly by a friend who i know just 3 months... well.. i dont want to elaborate further... wht happend has happened.. life goes on...

yet still.. betrayal is painfull..

Bald

Yes... a diffrent term of physical appearance one could hardly imagine.. 'bald'.. its going to happend to me.. not  in a fashonized or cool way but something devotional..  my blog visitors esp from Malaysia might get the hint on what im trying telling about.. yes thaipusam is this weekend.. and yes im balding my self.. To be franked, ive vowed to the lord muruga for almost 2 years now to have my head shave clean and to offer him my hairs.. The lord have helped me alot now.. directly and indirectly and i feel its time now i return my promises before he took any action against me... hehehe.. 

So i will be going on saturday "chettipusam" with my family and relatives.. we are planing to go early to avoid traffic jam and to finish our prayers fast. The hair im planing to remove this friday before going to there on saturday.

So il  put an update and if possible picture of my new look with hair excluded from my head.. hehe.. till then chiaow..

Short Life

What is life worth for ? We live in this world for just a short period of time.. some manage to live for 80 years and plus.. some only managed to live very shortly.. In this 2 category the one that live in short period of time does not seems to enjoy the life completely.. some died on the hand of another human.. some dies of natural causes. The one died due to another human, i wonder the human who takes the life.. does the person appreciate life ? does the person value the life ?
Is human being been given the speacial blessings of god to take another persons life.. The sanity of the person who is taking the other peoples life...

I feel very sadened with the death of a teen in KL recently.. who died out of the hands of some policeman.. im not creating a political rukus out of my blog neither do defend any party involved.. just feel sad.. why do they have to take the life of this teen.. if he is guilty.. produce to the courts.. let the court punish him.. "if" he really commited the crime. But he is just a mere suspect.. does that give any license to anyone even for the authority to take him to his grave.. i feel pitty and sad to the family members of the teen... 22 years of raising him.. just to give him to the hand of some cops to be slain.. wonder is stealing car is more severe the punishment versus rape, kidnap, drugs & murder ? Till what extend the poor teen did to cause anger to the cops to the level of god to give him severe punishment till ending his life..

No mater how bad a person is .. lifting away a soul is not in the hands of human.. we could admit its the persons karma that he be parted this life in a such horrific scenario and a very tender age... but still.. its not our duty to assume the penalty... be it.. human... an animal.. or even a tiny insect.. HUMAN has no power to assume their life..

This kali yuga is severe then what the holy scriptures has been written.... i wonder is this the sign of the end of the world ?.. i dunt know... i just feel bad of it..

this post is dedicated to the death of "suspected" detainee teen A.Kuhan.. may your soul rest in peace.. Om shanti.

Horible health

As predicted.... my health on this new year would not be so good.. same as fortunes... "money wise"... health yes.. its been horrible... my cough is getting worst.. since the last fewer i got.. and my sorethroat to.. keeps coming and going.. arghh! its really annoying me... and not to mention the wealth portion... i could see some effects of it... ouchhh ! My cash is running out very fast.. i couldnt save a single RM... arrrrghhhhhhh !!

i feel im tangling with both of this horrible issues.. i wonder how im going to over come this.. help help... !!!

Lonely

Its 6 days after the born of 2009... 6 peacefull days.. 1st of January i spend a religious day with my mom and sis to temple at Penang (Hill top murugan temple) offering prayers for a good and prosperous year.. the day after that... normal day.. work.. home.. and round the table..

I dunt know why i feel very lonely... i could sense a emptyness on me.. am i missing something ?

usually its very rare for me to feel such way.. if i do i would listen to some new songs and humming the tune the whole day to release the tense of loneliness but today seems a bit diffrent..  i feel like i am missing something.. i couldnt figure out why.. what is it.. 

I feel like i need friends.. many many friends to console me... but who should i look for.. 

i cant digest this feeling of loneliness its really killing me.. arghhh ! is this the wave of the new year ? is this how im going to feel the rest of the year...  God !

its lunch hours and im sitting at my office typing this blog.. aim at my loneliness and ive no idea what i should do with it.. plan to skip my lunch. After that.. no idea..

Lonely.. a pain and a hollow feeling. Strange !

Happy New Year 2009

Happy New Year 2009... 

Wishing for prosperous.. Economical stable.. and war free year...

:)

"Lets blossom this year like the flower".....