Why me? :(

on Wednesday, July 18, 2012

never did i felt the painfully agonizing pressure on me,
never did i realize decision making carries so much burden,
never did i realize one day someone will take control over me
never did i realize one day someone will give me the pressure beyond my mind and my mentality could accept,
never did i realize i will be in a situation to choose either one of a choice.

why god giving me this kind of unbearable pressure to me? for what sin did i commit in my previous birth?
who is going to listen to my cries? who is going to console me in this painfull time? who?


god.. please end my suffering.. or end my life... either one.. i cant bear this pain. I feel im at the hells gate now!!!!!!!