Torn King "Durian"

Weekendfull of durian.. hahaha...

its durian season now and i could see most of the roadsides people are selling these fruit.. plus rambutan, mangosteen and much more... i had durian as well... last weekend at my cousins house.. a mini gathering.. we ate plenty much durian, me and my uncle went out to hunt, bargain and of-course find for a good smelling durians. We happened to found one at kulim.. its a old malay guy... we bargained the price... and packed the durians into my car... around 20 of them... ouchhh... my car absorber surely cries for the weight... After reached home... dig in to open the thorny fruit for the sweet fruit... Grrrrr!!#&$@ im the opener.. and as the opener of the fruit... i got numbers of torns stabbed on my palm... :( but yet the good part... i got to choose the best fruit for my taste.. hahahaha... then we had mangosteen...

After had the durians... roughtly around 5 evening... i got a shocking experience... I couldnt start my Car !!!! damn.. thats horrifying.. i had to call the insurance company for a auto-assist.. luckily enough thry came in and check.. found no problem.. it starts...

Probarbaly my car protest on me because of the durian i put.. arrghhh!!! its time to get my car serviced... probarbaly this weekend....

ok thats all for a sweet and shock durian week... hahaha... till next blogey.. c ya all .... :)

Sweet Sweet Friday

Ahhh.. Friday.. finnaly... !

I love friday, not because the next day will be weekends, but simply love the mood of friday... as always.. :)

Well.. nothing speacial on the weekends.. except for fetching my sis at the airport who is returning back from Madurai, India after 2 weeks there for a conference... hmmm no idea when and what time she will be landing.. probarbaly today she will call up for the info..

Anyway.. sunday.. im planing to go somewhere.. probarbaly to forget the "misserable tensions" that im getting now.. ... but ive no plan where to go... probarbaly for a movie? hangout with my cousins? friends? or worst case... sleeping on my bed till late noon !! hehehe... i dont do that always.. .. but will have it as an option... anyhow... as long as im out from the cocoon will be good for me..

Ok its 8am in de morning now... got a meeting to catch and will be packed with work stuffs whole day.... Till next blogey... C ya all...

Options in Life

I got a very misserable options to choose... i have to choose between "Book, Life or Money".. i dont know which one i should choose.. If i choose Book.. i will be prosperous in a year time.. If i choose Life.. i would be happy now and probarbaly continue with it.. if i choose Money... i have to generate it thruout to a point i could reach the summit of Life and Book... Im confused with these options.. these options really arent make me happy.. im trying to be happy (acting to be happy) but virtually... sad with these options... ahhhhh... i just hope god sees all this things that im facing..

options in life really are cruel sometimes..

Sad day for me today...

I cant decide these options as one of the options that i choose for sure will make me sad... for the other 2.. .i feel like crying... why the options.. why cant human being live without any options...

is this how life suppose should be...

i wish for a miracle.. in the mean time i have to move the dice for an option.. an option which will make me regret... probarbaly for the rest of my coming life..

I hope god sees all this game of his... and he is happy for making me sad :( ...

Hazy Day

Arghhh... Haze is back and its getting worst.. Its very hazy these days.. i could smell the wind taste like a burned tree ash.. arghhh... getting to worst.. the hotty weather.. i feel im virtually burning ! god save me !!

Yesterday (although its hazy out there), my mom forced me to bring her out to visit 2 of my elderly relative who are unwell.. So there i go, surpassing this dangerous haze, all time sweaty weather... bringing my mum, my aunt and cousin to Tanjung Bungah, far away after out from the ferry, around 10km.

Stay there couple of hours, after then head to Bukit mertajam visit another elderly relative before head home. Quite tiring.. To get things worst, i got back ache now :(

my cousin told me could be because of the jackfruit we ate on saturday.. haaahh.. i think i would be going to the hospital today after work, probarbaly a jap would save my backache problem.. im moving like a robot.. could feel a sharp pain...:(

anyway.. im just praying there would be a rain outside.. its getting from bad to worst now..

ok.. just has my lunch.. i got a meeting to catch.. till next blogey.. chiow..

Saturday blues..

Its been a long holiday last weekend.... Yea replacement holiday on Monday.. cool..

i had a preety intresting weekends actually.. went out visitng my relatives.. going out shoping..

and intresting of all... i went to "Market Street" in Penang.. To those who are not aware of the place.. its a street in penang.. also dubbed the Little India of Penang.. there are alots of shops selling quite number of stuffs... On Saturday i bring over my mom, sis and my lil cousin sis who came over for a stay at my house... we went out to shopping for my Sis who is leaving to India for her research convention this saturday.. On the mean time i had a shopping for myself too... Mom forced me to buy a gold ring for me.. and yea i bought it.. its a gemstone ring.. small ones... the price.. hahahaha.. quite hefty... actually i allready owned a gemstone ring.. its a nice Yellow Saphire (my birthstone) ring... but its too big.. so i brought a smaller version, something that can fit on my mid finger perfectly.... i dunt know yet hows its gonna look alike cause it would be crafted for my design and be ready only this friday... So this friday il be going there to collect it.. :)

Hmmmm... hopefully this gemstone ring brings me luck.. luck and more luck... inclusive of small amounts of $$$$$ money of course kekekeke :P

ok lunch time... i gota be off now.. till next blogey.. chiow..

Empty mid year

Hahhhh today is public holiday .. the agongs birthday.. and here iam in front of my laptop typing words of nonsence... arghh i wish i could runaway for a nice sweet holiday.. its been a while since ive last enjoyed a wonderfull holiday with my friends or family.. I wish i could have it again... but still yet i feel very uneasy spending unecessarily nowadays even for going out such as this... hmmm uncertainity of the economic i guess.... oh well... anyway.. its been quite a while ive post an update on my blog.. its June and this is my first post for the month.. as usuall life is going slow with no change as of now eventhought it is middle of the year. Man how fast time flies.. right now i feel only last month was February.. but now... it is June... thats fast..

Well.. apart from that.. its been a very hot sunny day nowadays.. not even a single drop of water coming out from the cloud... the intense heat causes flu.. & fever everywhere.. not to mention im getting it too... even though im back to normal.. im coughing almost 2 weeks now..man its really annoying.. arrghhh !

Haaaahh...i wish there's winter here... all i could do now is drinking herbal tea or coconut water to bring down my body temperature.. too hot!! too hot!!

Ok.. i feel im blabering alot now.. my brain is empty to think what else to write.. its 12 o'clock noon and its saturday.. im planing to sit at my house sofa and watch TV.. thats what i could do now..

urrgghhh....

ok guys till next post... c'ya..

Been a while

Its been a while since ive last post on my blog.. reason because.. my health condition ups and down with fever & stuff like that.. Ive been in terrible shape with this stupid fever, sorethroat, cold.. and keep sneezing most of the time for that... arghhhh!!

I think its due to the weather.. its been preety hot outside lately.. these force me to stay home even during weekends... but still i catch with nonsence fevers..

i wonder whats going to happen to the world.. if its raining.. it would rain till mass flood... if its hot it will be hot till we feel were going to end up like a roast chicken... i hope this is not the end of the world.. 

hmmmm..... sitting at my office... surfing internet.. blogging.. just ate my lunch... haah.. i feel sleepy.. i have couple of meetings later... and i need to work on my project papers.. arghhh!@!(&@!^$$ i hate monday!.. monday blues really freak me out..

Mothers Day

Last sunday was mothers day.. my uncle arranged a family get together on Kulim at his house.. most of my cousins my aunts, my uncles came in.. we had a splendid feast... both vege & non-vege.. Cut cake.. and exchanged gifts & cards for the momies.. (aunts & my mother)...

Well me my mother and my sis was supposingly be on vege on this whole month due to my grandmother passed away and its not 1 month yet..... exclude my father who couldnt make it to the event..... but forced by my cousins and uncle.. i took little non-veg things ... ahhh. cant stand the persuasion...  

Anyway... i ordered the cake and the flower for the event  :).. it was a nice mothers day speacial white cream cake with full of fruits on it.. kiwi, strawbery, mango and lychee... and also a nice text with "Happy Mothers Day" on it... I.. had snapped some beautifull moments.. couldnt upload it yet as my sis took it with her to her confrence at bukit merah, taiping yesterday... *argh*.. il get  a time to load it once she returns..

We left my uncles house around 9 and reached home around 10.15...with stomach nearly explode... hehehe  what a meal... all the meals.. was prepared by my aunt.. (Expert cook).. she prepared 8 type of dishes not include vege dish too... mmmmm my tounge can still sense the taste.. hehehe welll... 

So... thats all for now... at office doing some important work...

if i have a time then il load the mothers day pics... till then.. peaceeee...

:)

Hangout

Last saturday.. i was hanging out with 2 of my cousins who came by from Kulim... me my sis and both cousins went shopping, watching movies then took dinner.. and head home quite late...

We went to watch X-Men:Wolverine.. at Sunway GSC and shoping in there too at seberang jaya.. had some light dinner at OldTown cafe.. then went home...

Woahhh.. all on my spending.. my $$$ is flying away way too fast.. 

Well anyway its worthit.. especially spending for my lovely cousin sis.. haha...

Black Friday.

For me friday is a day of pure auspicious.. its a day of divine and very calm compare with other day.. thats why i love friday alot.. But last friday it happend to be a sad day for me. My grandmother passed away on the day. After 93 years living and finally she rests in peace.. Me, mom and dad went to taiping, kamunting around morning 10.am after i went to penang airport to send my sister who is leaving to kelantan for work confrence.. she couldnt attend the funeral so left 3 of us.. 

I bought for her a big round garland as a symbol of respect.. I didnt know i would need to stay at taiping.. so i didnt bring any clothes with me.. So after i left my parents there and sit beside my grandmothers coffin for a while.. i went straight to my home in penang, the next day my aunt.. my grandmothers 2nd daughter flying from Australia to give her last respect.. so i need to fetch her from the airport.. I fetched her on saturday morning at 10am.. and reached taiping around 12:15pm.. It was rather a very somber.. sad.. and disturbing environment.. For me 3 things that i cannot take in my life no matter what.. ... 1st.. suffering.. by anyone.. 2nd.. death... 3rd.. blood. 

This 3 things will surely disturb me for days.. sometimes months.. which will cause me to be uncomfortable most of the time.. I will surely loss my appetite.. and loss my ability to be in one piece.

Well around 1.45pm.. my grandmothers body have been taken to the creamatorioum ground.. i went there to.. to perform the final rites... im her first grandson.. so i will need to be involved.. as insisted by my parents and my relatives.. my father and his 2 brothers are amonth the others who performed the final rites.....After the full hinduism rites been performed.. we came home.. taken bath... had a rather unusuall, non jovial and silent lunch.. 

As the days goes on sunday... me my father and both his brothers went again to the crematorium ground together with the function priest to collect my grandmothers bones. One could imagine the sadness.. the pain... the fear... its the moment of deja'vu..  all those clouded me just like that in seconds.. but after a while... i begin to think about it.. eventually every single person in this world has to go thru the same thing.. its a shocking experience for me.. but i manage to over come it...

After my uncle.. my grandmothers last son.. done the prayers including pour my grandmothers ash ("asthi") on the flowing river.. we head back to my grandmothers house..there again we took a shower and had a quick lunch.. before me, my parents head back to penang.. follow by other relatives heading back to their homes...

I didnt expect or even imagine in my wildest dreams that my labour day holiday.. and furthermore my favourite day.. "friday" will end up rather emotional and somber.. Well.. thats how the human life cycle is... none is imortal.. if we start to breath.. one day..eventually we will stop to breath.. For me the holiday is not important.. but its just the loved ones.. once they parted away.. the pains are speachless............... ..... ..... ........

Dedicated to my Grandmother.. Mdm.Maheswary (1916 - 2009). Om Shanti..

ASM Units

Today at 10:30am i quickly rushed to Maybank at Bayan Lepas near my work area.. to bought the "ASM units investment" thats were making news in the headlines... since it is goverment guaranteed and gives back good % of intrest value.. so.. i think why not get some for myself.. good investment for my future ... hehe.he.  :P

The bank today was full of indians, i feel like entered temple or cinema hall.. haha ..  i think its because of the newspapers which hilighted only Indians allocated ASM units are yet to grab.. chinese and partial of malays allocated are allready been grabed. I saw an indian husband and wife just beside me waiting to get their chance on these goverment opened unit. I thought it would be appropriate if i say greet them.. so do i.. after a few talk i asked them if they were to  grab the ASM units and they say yes..

To my suprise they bought the ASM units for 20, 000 "RM20k". Goooshh.. im far behind.. i just bought for 1000 unit which is 1k of course.. wow.. on my mind i was thinking the couples have a good future.. nice to see indians invest such way.. their investment x the percentage the goverment give.. nice return.. :)

I dunt know how much the intrest % will be.. ive yet to calculate.. Planning to top up another 2000 or so in few days if the unit for Indians are still available.. "hopefully"....

Ok... its 12:40 now.. my stomach is making noise.. i better go and grab

something to eat will be preety tight today with multiple meetings.. "geeeezz i hate meetings !&^%*#@&^@*##@" !

Till next blogey... c ya all..

A closing of a new Begining

Today ive closed down a one and only website of mine.. my 1st attempt of having a personal Homepage which ive maintained for over 6 years.. and today ive decided to close it down for an attempt to have a single site.. which is this site.. my blog site. 

I felt sad to close that site down.. all the years of fun of editing & coding.. every single moment spent on updating the page day and nite.. till the full birth of the site.. finally come to an end. I created that site for fun, an eager of having a personal site.. Yet i met and visited by many friends of the net.. some with a sweet notes.. some with a nasty notes.. and some with a praised words.. 

Yes it was my first attempt.. ive no idea whether what i did at the time was right of wrong.. but i enjoyed every single seconds coding it in pure html, dhtml and javas.. The say goes "every begining has its end".. and i believe the end is now.. The updates are outdated and it looks preety much childish for me to keep updating it..

hence ive decided to closing it down with a heavy heart...

To those who wonder what the URL is.. here you go..

   

   http://www.geocities.com/shri2151

I managed to place a sweet note with a re-direct link to this blog..

Hopefully those visitors have time to visit this blogs too..

C ya geocities site... il sure miss u..

ok guys.. :)

till next blogey.. 

chiow !

Delayed events info..

Events that went couple of days ago on the month of april...

My mothers birthday.. :)

it was a lovely, sweet and simple birthday... held on April-11th.. she is 56 years old now..

Here are couple of her birthday pics that i able to catch.. sorry i plan not to upload me & my family pics due to safety and spam concern.. just the cake pics will just do it.. :)

Heavy rain downpour

Today i was wet almost enitrely... it was a heavy rain early in the morning.. and i could see most of the place that i cross while going to my work place was flooded.. Luckily i bring in an extra jeans and this has saved me from extreme cold condition with wet dress :P

Its 12pm now.. about to go for my lunch..

so .. till next blogey...

Awsome but Tiresome trip

Hope the tittle explains... anyway.. i can elaborate more on my journey last saturday.. well i went to a place called "Dublin Estate" (not in Ireland or europe).. ive no idea why they call it dublin. We start our journey on Saturday at 6.30pm.. Went with my friends on a 4WD.. Straight to the state of kedah (kulim)... From Kulim hi-tech park its roughly around 1 to 2 hours journey.. The weather was very breezy and cool.. cause its started to rain.. not so heavy... but non-stop rain.. the estate became extremely muddy and slippery.. It was not as i expected... the rain... ouch is the painfull factor.. since the temple that i went is very small.. it could not factor in the amount of people who joined us.. worst to come.. no electricity.. no houses... no water.. its purely in a thick jungle like palm estate..

Thats not the end of the worst.. there is one more in the form of blood sucking tiny beasts call "Mr.leeches"... ive been sucked out of my blood nearly 8 times.. :(.. not sure should i say this is a great experience.. or should i say this is the lifestyle of the place.. i dont know... ive start with an awsome feeling but ended up terrified.. not as i expected.... But things begun to change as the morning arrives.. as i could see clearly what i couldnt at night.. the environment.. and things like that.. After a very tiring, non sleeping, leechy encountering day.... the morning seems show diffrent side.. no leeches.. (well less i could see) and the sun was bright and nice.. The best part of this trip i must say is taking the morning bath in the river.. crystal clear pure mountain water river.. wow.. the coolness the chill.. the feeling really magnetized me from going away from the place... it was very nice feeling... :)

We had our lunch and pack up around 3pm.. on the way out from the estate we managed to visit few other temples as well.. one wonderfull goosebump information that i noted is all these temples was build not few months not few years.. they were build during the reign of british empire in malaysia 5o years back... thats intresting.. the local community and visiters do manage the place well.. of couse the plantation workers too... So... its an awsome and tiresome trip alas...

Something that i couldnt forget... a rare occurance in my life.. well  wonderfull it is.. Wish to have this sorts of trip more in my journey..  Even though at a time i feel dirtier due to no proper sanitary options.. i wonder myself.. how a native of that place would survive.. how they would live.. Im educated.. the peoples staying there since birth how they know outside worlds identity..

Intresting fact..

Well thats all of now.. signing off from my Unforgetfull journey.. till next blogey.. 

chiow.. :)

Buzy month..!*@&%!@(&!#

Its been a horrible buzy month for me "March".. Work has turn to be a hell.. as im doing quite amount of works.. arghh and still couldnt help to manage myself.. ive no time to update my blog site unlike previously... ouch :(

But within all this horrible timing... ive been able to patch up here and there with my personal moments... not many... im going to a temple this sunday with my friends.. its quite far from where i stay.. around 200km from penang.. wow thats a length... yea.. just for fun..

and im going to take some pictures.. hopefully i could upload them here... 

hmmm its lunch time and im still stuck at my office cubical and doing my work.. well not hungry anyway.. i have lots of things to complete... plan to skip my lunch today.. had a very full breakfast this morning... so not hungry...

ok... til next post to come...chiow...

steps to overcome hard financial times

I found this steps to overcome hard financial times in the net.. seems good to follow.

* Hard work: All hard work bring a profit, but mere talk leads only to poverty. 

* Laziness: A sleeping lobster is carried away by the water current. 

* Earnings: Never depend on a single source of income. [At least make your

Investments get you second earning] 

* Spending: If you buy things you don't need,

you'll soon sell things you need. 

* Savings: Don't save what is left after

spending; spend what is left after saving. 

* Borrowings: The borrower becomes the lender's slave. 

* Accounting: It's no use carrying an umbrella, if your shoes are leaking. 

* Auditing: Beware of little expenses; A small

leak can sink a large ship. 

* Risk-taking: Never test the depth of the river with both feet. [Have an

alternate plan ready] 

* Investment: Don't put all your eggs in one basket. 

Slumcat

I dunt get the hype that is going on for the slumdog.. its a movie nevertheless.. but what makes me confuse is those frenzy thing the fans of all over the world creating... my main question is Slumdog Millionaire worth for oscar picture ? Bombay dreams is far more better then this slumdog..  A.R.rahman is a music genius yes i agree.. iam his fan yes i admit.. but on this film slumdog his music doesnt fit at the place.. its been stuffed with all those computerized and electronic sounds and i feel its noisy at a time.. and that goes to wins him the award... ! well i dunt know how the judges select the movie... but i feel a bit happy to see the first indian national recieve this award..

anyway i feel sad how they potray mumbai into cheap.. dirty.. low level leaving place eventhough.. it has changed alot... i just hope this slumdog hip dissapears.. 

for Rahman.. hmm... u have seems to ditch tamil music at least completely.. and focusing on hindi and international.. hope u r doing rite bro..

*to my blog readers, dont get offended.. this is my personal opinion on the slumcat.. errr i mean dog :)*

Buzy in a box

I cant get a suitable word for this topic.. basically my situation.. im in a box... and extremely buzy as if im in a box.... arrghhhhhh  my work place hectic are killing me...

plenty of works and most of the time i had to skip my lunch to complete my work... terrible terrible terrible... This is very suitable with this years "chinese calendar" animal symbol.. they year of cow.. Have to work like a cow... suitable year... :((

i feel very tired.. work work work.. and no time for myself... arrgghhh !!!

$^&*^*%&%*@$*%&#$(@&%$#(%&@$#^%$!(%#$(!%@#$(%!@~$

Economy..

Cash, money, dollar, ringit.. what ever the name is ... its too precious to think on spending.. its really weird how the economic accross the world nowadays.. too.. scary.. those dangerous terms like retrenchment, vss, job slash etc.. are very very scary.. 

I wonder when does all this things will be settled down.. 

geezz..

I need to come up with new spending structure of myself.. i have to stop spending blindly.

Which i dont usually.. my plan for a new phone and camera.. have to be gone with the wind.. :((

Peacefull Thaipusam

I feel peacefull this thaipusam.. not so crowded.. not so rushing.. everything went per plan..

We go there early.. eventhough a bit congested on the road.. and prayed.. and finished our vows fast and by 8pm  we are below the temple taking our energy suplements... "basically FOOD!"

yea.. we was ancious of to get below.. 

.. i felt the pain of taking the heavy milk pots.. the barefoot walking.. the sweatness... is all worth..

its like a test of patience and ones discipline to overcome the obstacle.. there was a point i felt like crying.. but i managed to overcome it ... and i feel very happy for it... 

Its a great devotional experience and a pure satisfaction.. the experience i would never forget till next year thaipusam.. Im really felt greatfull to Lord muruga for his blessings and his protection to me and my family for it.. all those pains are mere dust.. for me .. :)

Anyway.. to be a bald... is something embarassing.. and im wishing my hair will grow fast.. haha.. :P except for my moustache where im planning to keep it away.. a new me .. :P

Betrayal..

How do we feel being betrayed. For me betrayal is something very painfull then anything else..

neh.. this post does not indicate anything speacial.. its just that recently i got betrayed... sadly by a friend who i know just 3 months... well.. i dont want to elaborate further... wht happend has happened.. life goes on...

yet still.. betrayal is painfull..

Bald

Yes... a diffrent term of physical appearance one could hardly imagine.. 'bald'.. its going to happend to me.. not  in a fashonized or cool way but something devotional..  my blog visitors esp from Malaysia might get the hint on what im trying telling about.. yes thaipusam is this weekend.. and yes im balding my self.. To be franked, ive vowed to the lord muruga for almost 2 years now to have my head shave clean and to offer him my hairs.. The lord have helped me alot now.. directly and indirectly and i feel its time now i return my promises before he took any action against me... hehehe.. 

So i will be going on saturday "chettipusam" with my family and relatives.. we are planing to go early to avoid traffic jam and to finish our prayers fast. The hair im planing to remove this friday before going to there on saturday.

So il  put an update and if possible picture of my new look with hair excluded from my head.. hehe.. till then chiaow..

Short Life

What is life worth for ? We live in this world for just a short period of time.. some manage to live for 80 years and plus.. some only managed to live very shortly.. In this 2 category the one that live in short period of time does not seems to enjoy the life completely.. some died on the hand of another human.. some dies of natural causes. The one died due to another human, i wonder the human who takes the life.. does the person appreciate life ? does the person value the life ?
Is human being been given the speacial blessings of god to take another persons life.. The sanity of the person who is taking the other peoples life...

I feel very sadened with the death of a teen in KL recently.. who died out of the hands of some policeman.. im not creating a political rukus out of my blog neither do defend any party involved.. just feel sad.. why do they have to take the life of this teen.. if he is guilty.. produce to the courts.. let the court punish him.. "if" he really commited the crime. But he is just a mere suspect.. does that give any license to anyone even for the authority to take him to his grave.. i feel pitty and sad to the family members of the teen... 22 years of raising him.. just to give him to the hand of some cops to be slain.. wonder is stealing car is more severe the punishment versus rape, kidnap, drugs & murder ? Till what extend the poor teen did to cause anger to the cops to the level of god to give him severe punishment till ending his life..

No mater how bad a person is .. lifting away a soul is not in the hands of human.. we could admit its the persons karma that he be parted this life in a such horrific scenario and a very tender age... but still.. its not our duty to assume the penalty... be it.. human... an animal.. or even a tiny insect.. HUMAN has no power to assume their life..

This kali yuga is severe then what the holy scriptures has been written.... i wonder is this the sign of the end of the world ?.. i dunt know... i just feel bad of it..

this post is dedicated to the death of "suspected" detainee teen A.Kuhan.. may your soul rest in peace.. Om shanti.

Horible health

As predicted.... my health on this new year would not be so good.. same as fortunes... "money wise"... health yes.. its been horrible... my cough is getting worst.. since the last fewer i got.. and my sorethroat to.. keeps coming and going.. arghh! its really annoying me... and not to mention the wealth portion... i could see some effects of it... ouchhh ! My cash is running out very fast.. i couldnt save a single RM... arrrrghhhhhhh !!

i feel im tangling with both of this horrible issues.. i wonder how im going to over come this.. help help... !!!

Lonely

Its 6 days after the born of 2009... 6 peacefull days.. 1st of January i spend a religious day with my mom and sis to temple at Penang (Hill top murugan temple) offering prayers for a good and prosperous year.. the day after that... normal day.. work.. home.. and round the table..

I dunt know why i feel very lonely... i could sense a emptyness on me.. am i missing something ?

usually its very rare for me to feel such way.. if i do i would listen to some new songs and humming the tune the whole day to release the tense of loneliness but today seems a bit diffrent..  i feel like i am missing something.. i couldnt figure out why.. what is it.. 

I feel like i need friends.. many many friends to console me... but who should i look for.. 

i cant digest this feeling of loneliness its really killing me.. arghhh ! is this the wave of the new year ? is this how im going to feel the rest of the year...  God !

its lunch hours and im sitting at my office typing this blog.. aim at my loneliness and ive no idea what i should do with it.. plan to skip my lunch. After that.. no idea..

Lonely.. a pain and a hollow feeling. Strange !

Happy New Year 2009

Happy New Year 2009... 

Wishing for prosperous.. Economical stable.. and war free year...

:)

"Lets blossom this year like the flower"..... 

End of 2008

Here goes another year... 365 days of memories... year 2008..
Its all coming to end now.. still left few more days before the reset of the counter to 1/1/09. Hmm.. but im still not feeling good.. ive been on terrible fever, sore throat and cold for the past 2 weeks.. i couldnt able to smell and taste anything.. as if my tounge and nose are dead.. arghhh terrible... yesterday i went to the clinic for the 3rd time now... kind of first experience.. going to the clinic for 3 consecutive time for fever which is something never happened or i experienced. I wish i could get better before the new year.. well not for celebrating the new year.. "I DONT WANT to lay in the bed taking medicines on the new year." its a very bad omen to be think of..
:((

Other then that.. im going towards a healthier lifestyle with the aim of reducing my weight.. yes.. ive been going thru the process of painfully rejecting all my favourite foods now for a week... reducing rice... reducing milk... reducing chicken.. eggs... you name it... going for de capati for the past a week.. welll it is something very painfull.. but i feel glad.. im determined to a full recovery of my body tone... a slimmer... nicer... and attractive me... oh well... hoping for that !

I do understand the consequences... my mom keep nagging to me that suddent stop of all this foods may impact my health.. especially since i stopped taking any sea based products over 12 years ago... yea i know.. but tying to balance my diet with the enough energy... i wish i could tone down as much as 5 kg before thaipusam.. which is on the 8th of February next year... I wish.. !

Well ok now... time to get back to my work... im at the office now and things are pilled up here..

Ok all till the next blogey... Chiow..

Oh yea before i forget too all my Christian friends & viewers of this blog who are celebrating Christmas tomorow...

"I wish you Merry Christmas & Happy new Year !"

be with your loved ones.. take care of them and enjoy the celebration happily... :)

Wrap up of 2008

The time is 8:30 am and im sitting at my office cubicle after attending an important phone confrence meeting with my US counterparts. Was wondering to myself.. 2008 is about to comes to an end. Im trying to recall the stuffs that i could remember in 2008.. for me personally 2007 is very painfull even to think about.. 2008 is a bit somber.. nothing new.. nothing bad.. nothing cool.. except for my studies which has comes to a completion. Other then then.. 2008 is a year full of death's. Ive been admired many people in this world.. some of them are famous philosopher, famous spiritual guru and basically famous person.. but sadly enough most of them seems passed away in this year itself. For me 2008 seems a year of death.. eventhough there is no any significance on my life.. but the atmosphere seems terrible enough.. oh well anyway its about to end in a 2 weeks time.. go away 2008 and comes with 2009.. Not sure what 2009 has in store for me.. basically ive stoped writing down any new year accomplishment.. because for me its a crap thingy to do.. write in the first few week and forget about it the rest of the year... haha it happens to all !.. For me, my only aim is to succeed in my studies, having a good mind and thought... thats enough for me... im not a money and fame hunger... i strongly believe a good thought and good thinking person will wisely survive the rest of his life succesfully.. and im into it.. 

Hopefully Mr.2009 pave way for that... :)

Ok i got to go back to work now... till next blogey .. !

adios..

Somber month..

I feel like a giant magnet is pulling my feet back to the past.. gosh.. time are running very slow.. i cant see 2009's shine arghh...

nothing new and nothing much to be recorded on my blogey for the past hibernation.. all seems going slow.. other then that.. ive updated my blog with "facebook" icon... easier for visitors of my blog to get in touch with me in the facebook.. :)

Well till next blogey..

Deepavali and long holiday..

Deepavali is over just 2 days ago... i know ive posted my blog late on it.. its due to i was on leave for a week... yea a long week... I hate to be on leave for that period of time.. its just that deepavali is something speacial for me.. :) Well and it does has some suprises and a possible cancellation of my house's deepavali celebration.. yea my grandmother suffered a light mild stroke a day before deepavali.. causing my house near stop of all preperation and celebration (including making cookies).. because we thought things gonna be serious as my grandmother is 93 years old...can u imagine that... 'ninety three years old' no joke on that... ! but things got better when the doctors anounced she has recovered a few hours later.. gosh.. a relief..

After came back from my grandmothers visit at taiping hospital.. things resumed back to normal for me... i.e deepavali mood back kicking again.. haha.. well i brought 3 shirts and a jeans for me.. also spend hefty amount of my bonus payout for deepavali celebration this year.. buying things for my family, dresses , decorations and firecrackers for my cousins... and things like that... Well as normal nothing new this year.. all are as same as last year... well i missed celebrating deepavali the way how i used to celebrate few years back at my old house... things have changed preety much now.. still i tried my level best to create back to atmosphere.. just that it didnt work out well for me.. Well its over now.. all those rush of a month preparing for the one day celebration came to an end.. Well.. lets see whats Deepavali for year 2009 has in store for me :)

Till next blogey.. c ya all.. chiow.. and

Happy Deepavali to all my Hindu friends and blog readers..

Buzy month Octobee...

Ive been horrible buzy this few weeks.. or should i say from the start of october... fewww... ive been out of net for quite sometimes now.. thats why no blogey these days... Well there is many things going on around me.. i couldnt recall any right now... for the past... for the current ... ive been bz with work stuffs... "termendous" projects schedules at work.. and my final exam for my studies are around the corner... eventhough i havent start to study yet... *geez*... and deepavali around the corner too... 2 more weeks... wow.... super hectic for me thou.. and add to worst... my house (parents) are undergoing some major renovation.. and i need to spare times for that too... all these things keeps me occupy most of my time... and i havent start shoping for myself yet... ouch... :(

Well... im hoping from next week wednesday onwards i would be back to normal... as the peak of the stuffs around will go down and i may have some time for my self... hoping so.. hummm.. apart from that.. nothings up .... all norm.. well... thats all for now.. till next expecting free time week... chiow !

My Birthday..

Gone the day of entering the new world...

Yesterday was my birthday... Mom and sis throw out a simple suprising birthday celebration for me on the day itself... around 12am (mid-nite) yea... midnite.. hehehe.. how sweet :) Sis bought for me "chocolate chips moist cake" its not my favourite actually but i enjoyed it throughly... No presents... (how sad).. but the cuting the cake in the night of my birthday was something memorable.. i catched 2 pictures of my cake from my sis camera... (my birthday cake below) :).
Apart from that.. i recieved many birthday wishes.. some are from my friends .... apart from getting wishes from my relatives... i got a nice shirt from my aunt... so sweet... il keep it for my deepavali now.. no time to wear it on this day itself...
well its been a nice enjoyable day thou.. ok at my office rite now.. not yet starting my work...
till the next blogey... chiow...

Templatez

Planning to change the design look of my blog page.. give it a touch of proffesional and cool look..
im looking into some of the blog templates around the web.. free ones obviously.. hehehe
once i get one that attracts my taste, i might change the existing design.. :)

Starting to Hate malaysia..

I used to love malaysia for its cultural diversity and democracy... but since november 2007.. many facts and neural data that ive seens have erased the impression permanently... things are completely in mess situation... the recent arrests of bloggers and civilians under (i prefer not to say it cause i dont want to be in the list of getting it).. which is a draconian act.. no freedom.. no justice...but a complete way to silence up.. Malaysia is turning in to China now.. geez.. feel scared thinking of these.. I just hope those responsible of invoking those acts be fired for this action.. pitty the family of those got detained...

Dedicated to Theresa Kok and RPK..
i wish they are been treated respectfully and with full dignity..
I personally wish u guys safety there.. we will pray for u..

Kangal Irandal

Nice song... really touched my heart to the deepest bottom with its meanings.. :)

Film: Subramaniapuram

kangal irandal un kangal irandal
ennai katti izhuthai izhuthai podhadhena
chinna sirippil oru kalla sirippil
ennai thalli vittu thalli vittu moodi maraithai

Kangal irandal un kangal irandal
ennai katti izhuthai izhuthai podhadhena
chinna sirippil oru kalla sirippil
ennai thalli vittu thalli vittu moodi maraithai

pesa ennisila naal arugil varuven
pinbu paarvai podhumena naan
ninaithen nagarvene maatri

Kangal ezhudhum iru kangal ezhudhum
oru vanna kavidhai kadhal thanaa
oru vaarthai illeye ithil oosai illeye
idhai irulilum padithida mudigiradhey

iravum alladha pagalum alladha
pozhudugal unnodu kazhiyuma
thodavum koodatha padavum koodatha
idaiveli appodhu kurayuma

madiyinil saindhida thudikkethey
marupuram naanamum thadukkudhey
idhuvarai yaaridamum solladha kadhai

kangal irandal un kangal irandal

ennai katti izhuthai izhuthai podhadhena

chinna sirippil oru kalla sirippil

ennai thalli vittu thalli vittu moodi maraithai

karaigal andaatha kaatrum theendatha
manadhukkul eppodhu nuzhaindittai
udalum alladha uruvam kolladha
kadavulai pol vandhu kalanthittai

unai andri veroru ninaivillai
ini indha oonuyir enadhillai
thadai ellai saavilume unnodu vara

Kangal ezhudhum iru kangal ezhudhum
oru vanna kavidhai kadhal thanaa
oru vaarthai illeye idhil oosai illeye
idhai irulilum padithida mudigiradhey

pesa ennisila naal arugil varuven
pinbu paarvai podhum enanaan ninaithen
nagarven emaatri

kangal irandal un kangal irandal

ennai katti izhuthai izhuthai podhadhena

chinna sirippil oru kalla sirippil

ennai thalli vittu thalli vittu moodi maraithai...

Happy Ganesha Chaturthi

Happy Ganesha Chaturthi

may Lord ganesha bless us with all prosperity and divine knowledge...

"Vakratunda mahkaya surya kodi samaprabha nirvighnam guru me devasarva karyesu sarvada"

O crooked-trunked, big body divinity,lustrous as ten million suns,please make me obstacle free,in all activities at all times

Magnificient Maran Marthandavar

Yep... i had a wonderfull time on my vacation.. man must i say how happy i was. Me and my friends went out on last friday at 9pm and drove all the way to pahang after pickup the rest of my friends... at one point iam the sole driver from perak highway (somewhere near tapah highway). Wow.. i was very excited driving all the way from tapah to maran pahang.. its more then 200km all by myself.. of course with the guidance of my friends. We reached our destination " Sri Marthandavar Temple" pahang on the next day saturday at 8:10am. Exhausted, tired and hungry we were. After took a short breakfast near the temple.. we bathed and offer our prayings at the temple... I took couple of pictures of the surrounding temple. It looks magnificient. After then... we went to batu caves. Thats my second visit there.. After then... we visited head straight to Klang where an uncle of mine booked hotel for all 8 of us...

After quick shower we dressed up nicely and head straight to dinner also brought by my uncle.. and straight to the "Happening" ... we head to KL main city to a indian live band pub called "Chakravarthy". Had our great time there.. and head straight back to hotel afterwards... The next day.. we went to my uncles house.. hang out for a while and watch movie. After the movie.. we head to lunch.. and head back home around 3pm something...

The worst part is i nearly missed my camera luckily enough the owner of the luncheon shop keeps it to me.. i wonder what im going to answer if i really lost the camera... Gosh..

it was tired ride but i enjoy it to the max.. :)

Great... wonderfull.. .and happening vacation this was...can wait for another round

if my friends organized it.

For the rest of the pics... it can be found here : http://picasaweb.google.com/gauthemen/MaranTrip

Mother of all election...

Yes, this should be called the 'mother of all election' why ? because of a the big opposition figure's re-entry into parliament of malaysia. The election is in permatang pauh, my hometown. I was there passing by all day to work right from the announcement of the small by-election. Wow the hype.. the unnecessary 'police' force, the speacial squad force... its more to be said as a battle ground. I wonder why the rulling goverment need to spend so much of tax payers money for all this... it clearly indicates their fear of the opposition leaders return.. well... for me no diffrence.. i just wish for a betterment of Indian ethnic in malaysia.. cannot hope from the rulling.. so im hopping for a good outcome for the opposition. Naahhh... my blog does not ment to be a political blog... so i end this for now...

Besides.. im in jolly good mood for the weekend travel... i would be travelling with my friends to pahang.. to temples... to places... to friends house... wow.. the excitement is gushing my andrenalin... cant control the hype..

This friday im taking 1/2 day time off... just to get well prepared for the travelling.. i need to buy stuffs... need to prepare my clothings... and of course obviously "cant wait for de travel" *giggle*... haha.. another important thing is sadly i got to skip my class... yea... once in a lifetime.. i cant afford anything to came across.. nahh ... hehehe...

So... il update again soon on what else im getting prepared.. till then.. chow.. :)

Long post... neh..

Its been so long since i last post my blog... geez time flies like a bee.. Ive dont have a single time to blog... to buzy handling my life, work..study..family... wow.. i cant believe.. As i said.. ive been to buzy these days with lots of things.. well life goes on...

Yet still i couldnt wait for the end of this month.. yahooo it would be my personal vacation wit my friends.. :)

Cant waity waity...